Thursday, November 24, 2005
Dont wanna tok.Feel like crying again.Dont know whyI keep crying. Tears just flow out without knowing. I guess this way is better. Dont have that cold cold feeling in the chest.During camp , I also nearly cried, luckily there wasnt anyone around.That's why I dont want to go out and meet others.I dont want others to see me cry.At least when I am alone, I dont have to pretend being something I am not.I am sad.I am upset.I am depressed, but what's bothering me?I feel like throwing my temper, but I cant.Haiz..
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/24/2005 05:02:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, November 21, 2005
Life suxs. I cant even go to guzheng , now I must go camp . Terror and horror.Haiz, I dont know. Hope I can come back in a piece though.Camps like this will kill me, especially now that I feeling the same old pain again.Life suxz.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/21/2005 12:24:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, November 08, 2005
It is 4 mins past midnight.I just cant fall asleep again.I have just too many thoughts difting my mind now. I dont understand why am I in this predictment. I am really trying very hard to live on and I will try to find hope in my life again.I dont understand why am I upset all the time.I dont understand why am I feeling numb all the time.I dont understand all the emotions I am feeling now.
Haiz. I realli dont understand anything.But I must say that I am grateful for something.I am grateful for meeting many good friends in my life, especially in these three years.I am very very grateful, because without them, I would have been dead a long time ago.I know I dont really deserve it and I always thought that it must have been a mistake made by someone who controls all these funny things, but it is a very nice mistake.It has been a very heartwarming experience.Before I came into Xinmin , I knew no joy and pleasures in life.Life was just tough and only the fittest survive.I can still remember vivdly how dull and montonous my life was.
I became a sec 1 , landed in 1E3 and met a bunch of hyperactive and cute people. They are pretty interesting people.Somehow in general, they are pretty deep people.They may not be percived as what you see them to be.Friends like them add really a lot of color to your life, because you can never be bored with them. Yi lin, Eunice,Karen, Siew Yuen , Wanting, Hui Yi, Miow Qin,Yu ying, Yun ting, Bao Zhen, Jia Hui and Yue shi.
Then my dart chose my cca for me.Guess I must be really very lucky that the dart chose Guzheng for me.Then I met another group of very interesting people.I think when they are together, they make a impact.They are my seniors.I feel that they are very very nice to others, either that ,or that they are very nice to their juniors.People like SA (dont like me to call her ah bu) Zhen gong , Guardian panda really left an impression.Yeah, I am grateful that I had a chance to know them.
I also had very nice friends who I met in tuition.We never failed to disrupt the class with our laughter.We had a lot of great time laughing together , getting lots of scolding together. I think my skin thickened quite a bit after knowing them.Hahaz.I really couldnt remember a time when I was feeling down with them around.They really help by chasing the blues away.Mastura, Shena, Bei Shan.Bei shan always never fail to remind me that she is related to the war hero Lim Bo Seng. Initials of Lim Bo seng- L.B.S Intials of Lim Bei Shan-L.B.S . therefore Lim Bo seng = Lim Bei Shan. Hahaz.very damn thick skin.
Even though some of these are things in the past , I think god is pretty fair to me in certain ways.However, I really dont deserve it, because no matter how I tried not to, I will make these people upset.
Haiz. I realli dont understand anything.But I must say that I am grateful for something.I am grateful for meeting many good friends in my life, especially in these three years.I am very very grateful, because without them, I would have been dead a long time ago.I know I dont really deserve it and I always thought that it must have been a mistake made by someone who controls all these funny things, but it is a very nice mistake.It has been a very heartwarming experience.Before I came into Xinmin , I knew no joy and pleasures in life.Life was just tough and only the fittest survive.I can still remember vivdly how dull and montonous my life was.
I became a sec 1 , landed in 1E3 and met a bunch of hyperactive and cute people. They are pretty interesting people.Somehow in general, they are pretty deep people.They may not be percived as what you see them to be.Friends like them add really a lot of color to your life, because you can never be bored with them. Yi lin, Eunice,Karen, Siew Yuen , Wanting, Hui Yi, Miow Qin,Yu ying, Yun ting, Bao Zhen, Jia Hui and Yue shi.
Then my dart chose my cca for me.Guess I must be really very lucky that the dart chose Guzheng for me.Then I met another group of very interesting people.I think when they are together, they make a impact.They are my seniors.I feel that they are very very nice to others, either that ,or that they are very nice to their juniors.People like SA (dont like me to call her ah bu) Zhen gong , Guardian panda really left an impression.Yeah, I am grateful that I had a chance to know them.
I also had very nice friends who I met in tuition.We never failed to disrupt the class with our laughter.We had a lot of great time laughing together , getting lots of scolding together. I think my skin thickened quite a bit after knowing them.Hahaz.I really couldnt remember a time when I was feeling down with them around.They really help by chasing the blues away.Mastura, Shena, Bei Shan.Bei shan always never fail to remind me that she is related to the war hero Lim Bo Seng. Initials of Lim Bo seng- L.B.S Intials of Lim Bei Shan-L.B.S . therefore Lim Bo seng = Lim Bei Shan. Hahaz.very damn thick skin.
Even though some of these are things in the past , I think god is pretty fair to me in certain ways.However, I really dont deserve it, because no matter how I tried not to, I will make these people upset.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/08/2005 04:04:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities