Thursday, January 19, 2006
I am bloggin cos I am unhappy, but not that kind of wanna die that kind.Watched this serial just now, this guy in this show is suffering from liver cancer, then for some reason, he dashed onto a road and was nearly knocked down by the truck. He fainted on the spot because his weak body cldnt take the shock. While he was still sleeping, he had this dream about seeing his loved ones crying at the sight of his dead body. When he woke up, he decided to do his best to survive because he didnt want to let his loved ones down.Sounds kinda like a fairy tale, in reality it isnt true.
I still have the scar from the recent quarrel. I guess I pressed too hard onto my wrist, so there is a thin strip of swollen red line. Sometimes, thats the fastest way to straighten out your thinking, but it realli hurts after you are thinking right.
I dont know whether I have straighten things out or it would happen again , but was wrong the next day.
I wanna clear something. I dont like to die, well I am pretty afraid to die,however it doesnt mean I am not afraid to live.I am worried that one day while walking on the road or in school, I will have this intense feeling of committing suicide. I dont wanna hear that blasted voice telling me how should I commit suicide or a vision of what u are usppose to do and the last thing I dont wanna see.That is during my precious sleep ,I see my own grave.
I still have the scar from the recent quarrel. I guess I pressed too hard onto my wrist, so there is a thin strip of swollen red line. Sometimes, thats the fastest way to straighten out your thinking, but it realli hurts after you are thinking right.
I dont know whether I have straighten things out or it would happen again , but was wrong the next day.
I wanna clear something. I dont like to die, well I am pretty afraid to die,however it doesnt mean I am not afraid to live.I am worried that one day while walking on the road or in school, I will have this intense feeling of committing suicide. I dont wanna hear that blasted voice telling me how should I commit suicide or a vision of what u are usppose to do and the last thing I dont wanna see.That is during my precious sleep ,I see my own grave.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1/19/2006 10:27:00 pm
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