Tuesday, January 03, 2006
Today is the first day of school and I am feeling all worn out like what I always feel.I didnt catch a single wink last night.I just cant fall asleep beacause a lot of my memories just floated past me while I lay there on my bed.Haiz. I nearly cried in school again.I cried the whole of last night and today in the hall while I was reading a story in the handbook, tears just welled up in my eyes.
The story I was reading goes this way...
A speaker started off his seminar by holding up a 20 dollar . In the room of 200 , he asked,"who would like this $20 bill?"Hands started going up.
He said,"I am going to give this $20 to one of you, but first, let me do this."He proceeded to crumpled the $20 dollar up.He asked once more,"Who still wants it?"Still hands were up in the air.
"Well",he replied," What if I do this?"And he dropped the bill the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.
"My friends, we have all learnt a very very valuable lesson",he said,"No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled,and ground into dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.We feel as though we are worthless .
But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean ,crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless ,especially to those who love you.
The worth of our lives comes not what we do or whom we know , but who we are.
........
When I read the last sentense of the story , I really felt like crying.
I am just a burden to everybody .It is better if I hadnt been born into this world .The greatest regret I guess now was walking back.At that time, I shouldnt have walked back or I would have died of a peaceful death.Yeah, I would not have met such fabulous people like Shirley ,Carmen ,Wuzhen ,Yuquan and Simin.I would not have seen sy 's octopus face and nearly died of laughter.I wouldnt have met eunice and the rest except for Huiyi.But I dont mind, because it is really unfortunate of them to have met me.
Like everyone, I want to be happy for once, but i cant forget that I have hurted many people, that includes my family and my friends.If I die, I am gonnna hurt them one last time and they can get on wif their life and it will remove my burden completely.I have persisted long enough. It is time for me to be selfish.This once is all I ask you.Because of protecting my brother and everyone I hold dear ,I held on for 5 years without telling ppl.Just give me a break.
The story I was reading goes this way...
A speaker started off his seminar by holding up a 20 dollar . In the room of 200 , he asked,"who would like this $20 bill?"Hands started going up.
He said,"I am going to give this $20 to one of you, but first, let me do this."He proceeded to crumpled the $20 dollar up.He asked once more,"Who still wants it?"Still hands were up in the air.
"Well",he replied," What if I do this?"And he dropped the bill the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe.He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty.
"Now who still wants it?" Still the hands went into the air.
"My friends, we have all learnt a very very valuable lesson",he said,"No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value.
It was still worth $20
Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled,and ground into dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way.We feel as though we are worthless .
But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value. Dirty or clean ,crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless ,especially to those who love you.
The worth of our lives comes not what we do or whom we know , but who we are.
........
When I read the last sentense of the story , I really felt like crying.
I am just a burden to everybody .It is better if I hadnt been born into this world .The greatest regret I guess now was walking back.At that time, I shouldnt have walked back or I would have died of a peaceful death.Yeah, I would not have met such fabulous people like Shirley ,Carmen ,Wuzhen ,Yuquan and Simin.I would not have seen sy 's octopus face and nearly died of laughter.I wouldnt have met eunice and the rest except for Huiyi.But I dont mind, because it is really unfortunate of them to have met me.
Like everyone, I want to be happy for once, but i cant forget that I have hurted many people, that includes my family and my friends.If I die, I am gonnna hurt them one last time and they can get on wif their life and it will remove my burden completely.I have persisted long enough. It is time for me to be selfish.This once is all I ask you.Because of protecting my brother and everyone I hold dear ,I held on for 5 years without telling ppl.Just give me a break.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1/03/2006 06:17:00 pm
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