Friday, March 10, 2006
I am not going to have that 2 or even 1 point deducted when I recieved my O' level results.
Well, I mean if I can even score lower than 20 to qualify for Jc.
The first feeling was dishearten, follwed by frustration.
Dishearten that I would probably never get into a good Jc.
Yeah.
I want to have the ability to choose the schools I wished to enter,
not being limited to a pathetic few schools.
I am frustrated because I didnt get my CCA point because of just one problem that is still bugging me!
That is my back.
I remembered when I volunteer to join back the performing group during 60th annivesary last year so that I had the chance to perform with my seniors.
Since sec 2 , that was the main reason why I practice hard.
The chance was once again, indirectly denied for one reason.
My back.
I gave up the first chance because of my back.
I was denied the last chance because of my back.
After that, I didnt want to return to guzheng .
I dont belong there.
They have beautiful memories of performing together in SYF.
Their unforgettable trip to Beijing.
I dont.
Why?
My back.
It is just unfair.
I live with the pain and I dont get what I wanted .
People lived without it and get what they wanted.
I did not intentionally fell off the chair.
Yet I went through so much physical and psychological pain.
I dont think I have become a better person.
Just a person without friends
A person who has no self esteem
a person who hated himself or herself.
A person who dont deserve to be loved.
Get out of my life.
Well, I mean if I can even score lower than 20 to qualify for Jc.
The first feeling was dishearten, follwed by frustration.
Dishearten that I would probably never get into a good Jc.
Yeah.
I want to have the ability to choose the schools I wished to enter,
not being limited to a pathetic few schools.
I am frustrated because I didnt get my CCA point because of just one problem that is still bugging me!
That is my back.
I remembered when I volunteer to join back the performing group during 60th annivesary last year so that I had the chance to perform with my seniors.
Since sec 2 , that was the main reason why I practice hard.
The chance was once again, indirectly denied for one reason.
My back.
I gave up the first chance because of my back.
I was denied the last chance because of my back.
After that, I didnt want to return to guzheng .
I dont belong there.
They have beautiful memories of performing together in SYF.
Their unforgettable trip to Beijing.
I dont.
Why?
My back.
It is just unfair.
I live with the pain and I dont get what I wanted .
People lived without it and get what they wanted.
I did not intentionally fell off the chair.
Yet I went through so much physical and psychological pain.
I dont think I have become a better person.
Just a person without friends
A person who has no self esteem
a person who hated himself or herself.
A person who dont deserve to be loved.
Get out of my life.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/10/2006 07:16:00 pm
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