Tuesday, March 28, 2006
It is just a few pace away.
I stood there rooted to the ground, unable to lift or move a leg.
Feelings of helplessness and despair attacks .
I decided to seek help.
But no one bothered about me.
ten mins feels like eternity
I haven't had that feeling for a really long time.
Maybe since Chinese New year eve.
For the pass few days, I have been thinking about a lot of things.
taking some time to listen to the thoughts, to look through what have I done and reflect.
I dont exactly know why am I in such depressing state or the rationale behind everything I do.
I am just an ass to myself ,
I will take every opportunity to put myself down, I will use it well.
When I try to be nice, this act will make me feel like I am some creep.
Trying to be nice so that I have friends.
And I think I can never forgive myself, though I can forgive others very easily .
haiz.
I stood there rooted to the ground, unable to lift or move a leg.
Feelings of helplessness and despair attacks .
I decided to seek help.
But no one bothered about me.
ten mins feels like eternity
I haven't had that feeling for a really long time.
Maybe since Chinese New year eve.
For the pass few days, I have been thinking about a lot of things.
taking some time to listen to the thoughts, to look through what have I done and reflect.
I dont exactly know why am I in such depressing state or the rationale behind everything I do.
I am just an ass to myself ,
I will take every opportunity to put myself down, I will use it well.
When I try to be nice, this act will make me feel like I am some creep.
Trying to be nice so that I have friends.
And I think I can never forgive myself, though I can forgive others very easily .
haiz.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/28/2006 10:40:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities