Saturday, March 31, 2007
I was so irritated the whole morning today until something really nice happened.The incident cheered me up almost instantaneously.I went out with Glenda and her friend Elvina today.Eat, chat and shop.Horrible.My pocket feels so much lighter now.
A lot has happened in this week.I get to know more of the members of the class and face the problem of communicating with them effectively.The trouble with the class is that it is too large. It is just so hard to meet up and discuss about certain issues.
Then recently I was bugged by someone messaging me in the middle of the night.
Haiz.
A lot has happened in this week.I get to know more of the members of the class and face the problem of communicating with them effectively.The trouble with the class is that it is too large. It is just so hard to meet up and discuss about certain issues.
Then recently I was bugged by someone messaging me in the middle of the night.
Haiz.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/31/2007 10:18:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
You are not going to regret right?
We have been separated for so long ,
would you be disappointed in the current me?
I don't know what has happen between this period.
Is it really okay?
Interview isn't as productive as I thought it should be.
We've been asking the wrong questions.
I am waiting for the recording so that I can transcribe.
We have been separated for so long ,
would you be disappointed in the current me?
I don't know what has happen between this period.
Is it really okay?
Interview isn't as productive as I thought it should be.
We've been asking the wrong questions.
I am waiting for the recording so that I can transcribe.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/21/2007 11:07:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
I feel like a stranded fish. Right.
I don't know what's wrong with me.I just feel there is a barrier between the people in my JAE class and me.I think I am just too tired to socialised.Whatever.It isn't as if it matters.I mean you guys have your group of friends and social circle.Well, I am just a disjointed set.
I just feel so isolated and unwanted.
Things in this week is kind of hectic and taxing. I have got no idea what am I suppose to do. I just feel so lost!
I just hope this week pass quickly.If things are meant to be this way, then let it be. No point thinking about it or hoping to prevent it from happening.
I dont want to be in your class. I was hoping that I wont be in your class. It isnt because I dont like you , it's just weird.I hate the feeling of being ignored and it super apparent that you do.
I don't know what's wrong with me.I just feel there is a barrier between the people in my JAE class and me.I think I am just too tired to socialised.Whatever.It isn't as if it matters.I mean you guys have your group of friends and social circle.Well, I am just a disjointed set.
I just feel so isolated and unwanted.
Things in this week is kind of hectic and taxing. I have got no idea what am I suppose to do. I just feel so lost!
I just hope this week pass quickly.If things are meant to be this way, then let it be. No point thinking about it or hoping to prevent it from happening.
I dont want to be in your class. I was hoping that I wont be in your class. It isnt because I dont like you , it's just weird.I hate the feeling of being ignored and it super apparent that you do.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/20/2007 11:18:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, March 17, 2007
I think I must have a lot of time to spare these few days to actually update my post, not that anything really significant has happened. The feeling of writing something just can't wear off.
I think I have changed a lot.Well , that's for others to decide. Even my DISC profile thing changed drastically. An CS to a ID. Super big change.I am kind of feeling weird today.I just cant grasp that feeling or express it and moorthy was having fun finding out who was my eye candy. Great.It's just a fleeting feeling that he is cute.Nothing else and by the way he is attached.Apparently, he doesnt know me.If I really like a person, you will definitely know, but the person has not come into my life yet.I hope he doesn't appear within this two years. I have alot of outing tomorrow.Night.
I think I have changed a lot.Well , that's for others to decide. Even my DISC profile thing changed drastically. An CS to a ID. Super big change.I am kind of feeling weird today.I just cant grasp that feeling or express it and moorthy was having fun finding out who was my eye candy. Great.It's just a fleeting feeling that he is cute.Nothing else and by the way he is attached.Apparently, he doesnt know me.If I really like a person, you will definitely know, but the person has not come into my life yet.I hope he doesn't appear within this two years. I have alot of outing tomorrow.Night.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/17/2007 11:53:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, March 16, 2007
I should might as well blog after updating some of the links. Holidays is coming to an end and I have yet to spend some time with myself.I seriously need to take a break before the start of next hectic term.
Guess what time did I wake up today? 9.am! Ha! Ten hours of undisturbed and well used sleep. I think I just stick to the second stage throughout something because I didn't have dreams.I fell asleep immediately after lying on my bed.
Then again it wasn't immediately.My friend told me something that just couldn't get off my mind.I thought about a lot of things but it would be very insensitive of me to say it out. I just can't help worrying, but I guess all I should do is watch right? I am always so pessimistic till I can't stand myself. Then again it'snt a bad thing.You wouldn't be caught by surprise when something bad happens and you react better because of the anticipation.
Well, first time in my entire year that I don't have any plans for today. Excellent.I used to dread having time to myself because I have too much of it in the past.Now, I just love having it.I dont have enough time to reflect about the events that are happening in my life or what I have learnt in that past 24 hours.I just sleep if I had the time.I also have no time to reflect on what I have read.It's a serious crime of the century.
I was reading through economic essay a few days ago to have a grasp what is expected for this subject.The method of answering and the vocabulary used.I havent had the time to analyse yet.And I havent revise my history.International and south east asia. The five step essay and the source base essay.I havent been touching on maths too and I havent file and do my corrections for the previous test.My maths teacher has always tell me that correction is the most important thing to do besides filing and I totally agree with her.
I miss Miss Yeo.I miss her nagginess.I miss her over concerness. I just totally miss her lahz.I can still remember what did she told me the day 403 was offically over.I have never seen a teacher more concern about my well being than other teachers. Then there is Miss Sun.I totally miss her too. Then Xinmin guzheng people and my dear class 403.
There is OG3 and 0737 too. I kinda miss everyboday.
Guess what time did I wake up today? 9.am! Ha! Ten hours of undisturbed and well used sleep. I think I just stick to the second stage throughout something because I didn't have dreams.I fell asleep immediately after lying on my bed.
Then again it wasn't immediately.My friend told me something that just couldn't get off my mind.I thought about a lot of things but it would be very insensitive of me to say it out. I just can't help worrying, but I guess all I should do is watch right? I am always so pessimistic till I can't stand myself. Then again it'snt a bad thing.You wouldn't be caught by surprise when something bad happens and you react better because of the anticipation.
Well, first time in my entire year that I don't have any plans for today. Excellent.I used to dread having time to myself because I have too much of it in the past.Now, I just love having it.I dont have enough time to reflect about the events that are happening in my life or what I have learnt in that past 24 hours.I just sleep if I had the time.I also have no time to reflect on what I have read.It's a serious crime of the century.
I was reading through economic essay a few days ago to have a grasp what is expected for this subject.The method of answering and the vocabulary used.I havent had the time to analyse yet.And I havent revise my history.International and south east asia. The five step essay and the source base essay.I havent been touching on maths too and I havent file and do my corrections for the previous test.My maths teacher has always tell me that correction is the most important thing to do besides filing and I totally agree with her.
I miss Miss Yeo.I miss her nagginess.I miss her over concerness. I just totally miss her lahz.I can still remember what did she told me the day 403 was offically over.I have never seen a teacher more concern about my well being than other teachers. Then there is Miss Sun.I totally miss her too. Then Xinmin guzheng people and my dear class 403.
There is OG3 and 0737 too. I kinda miss everyboday.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/16/2007 11:44:00 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, March 10, 2007
I dont know whether I should just call myself a lucky bastard.Maybe when you are feeling all blue about things, your perspective would be clouded.I finally realised how bad the condition of my spine was after sharing it with another doctor.Apparently with three factures on three locations, I would have to be confined to bed until the factures join back itself because my spine would become contorted under gravity.I didnt, of course.My doctor never told me that in the past.
This current doctor was simply amazed because my spine didnt betray that fact that it was once badly injured.He thought it was just hip injury.Amusing. Thats' how good the doctor is.
It was just plain luck that I met this doctor before my condition deterioates and starts affecting other systems in the body.
Haiz. That dont seem to cheer me up at all.I just feeling all guilty and bad.Cos recently I felt like suiciding for no reason. I didnt, of course.It's just a thought.The past should have remain where it should always be, in the past.I cant let it carry on affecting me.Haiz, but I am powerless to do anything about it.
This current doctor was simply amazed because my spine didnt betray that fact that it was once badly injured.He thought it was just hip injury.Amusing. Thats' how good the doctor is.
It was just plain luck that I met this doctor before my condition deterioates and starts affecting other systems in the body.
Haiz. That dont seem to cheer me up at all.I just feeling all guilty and bad.Cos recently I felt like suiciding for no reason. I didnt, of course.It's just a thought.The past should have remain where it should always be, in the past.I cant let it carry on affecting me.Haiz, but I am powerless to do anything about it.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/10/2007 11:34:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, March 03, 2007
The past is renacting by itself. I hope I am wrong this time However I cant help seeing those fearful similarities between both events, and with the passing of time, it seems to be even clearer.This time I shall not do what I did in the past.This time I shall let go and let nature takes its path.There is no need knowing, because all it serves is to upset me.I dont have that courage to take another blow, so I just leave it as it is and it is not what I want to do anyway.
I hate just being this way.I hate feeling all lost and out of control of the situation.I hate feeling fear.It is just like the past unfolding itself in the present.
Suddenly I dread going to school. I dont want to feel all those feelings.I hate feeling lonely. I had feeling just like an insignificant part of another group.
Do you know who are the loneliest people? Those people who are apparently in groups but dont really participate, smile as an encouragement, laugh just to feel fit in and observe because he/she cant participate.Those are the loneliest people.I feel that way now.
Yes. I am really glad that they are bonding real well. It really makes my day to see two good friends playing and having the fun of their life.It really brighten up my day to see everyone playing and seriously enjoying themselves.However, I cant help feeling lonely.
It is just me? Is it just that I am losing faith in you guys too?I dont know.All I know is I am feeling totally miserable.I dont know how to get out of this mess and I dont know what went wrong.
I know I should be stronger but I just cant do it. I just cant stop hating myself or stop ill treating myself.I dont know why am I withdrawing from them too. Haiz.
I hate just being this way.I hate feeling all lost and out of control of the situation.I hate feeling fear.It is just like the past unfolding itself in the present.
Suddenly I dread going to school. I dont want to feel all those feelings.I hate feeling lonely. I had feeling just like an insignificant part of another group.
Do you know who are the loneliest people? Those people who are apparently in groups but dont really participate, smile as an encouragement, laugh just to feel fit in and observe because he/she cant participate.Those are the loneliest people.I feel that way now.
Yes. I am really glad that they are bonding real well. It really makes my day to see two good friends playing and having the fun of their life.It really brighten up my day to see everyone playing and seriously enjoying themselves.However, I cant help feeling lonely.
It is just me? Is it just that I am losing faith in you guys too?I dont know.All I know is I am feeling totally miserable.I dont know how to get out of this mess and I dont know what went wrong.
I know I should be stronger but I just cant do it. I just cant stop hating myself or stop ill treating myself.I dont know why am I withdrawing from them too. Haiz.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/03/2007 12:22:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities