Saturday, March 03, 2007
The past is renacting by itself. I hope I am wrong this time However I cant help seeing those fearful similarities between both events, and with the passing of time, it seems to be even clearer.This time I shall not do what I did in the past.This time I shall let go and let nature takes its path.There is no need knowing, because all it serves is to upset me.I dont have that courage to take another blow, so I just leave it as it is and it is not what I want to do anyway.
I hate just being this way.I hate feeling all lost and out of control of the situation.I hate feeling fear.It is just like the past unfolding itself in the present.
Suddenly I dread going to school. I dont want to feel all those feelings.I hate feeling lonely. I had feeling just like an insignificant part of another group.
Do you know who are the loneliest people? Those people who are apparently in groups but dont really participate, smile as an encouragement, laugh just to feel fit in and observe because he/she cant participate.Those are the loneliest people.I feel that way now.
Yes. I am really glad that they are bonding real well. It really makes my day to see two good friends playing and having the fun of their life.It really brighten up my day to see everyone playing and seriously enjoying themselves.However, I cant help feeling lonely.
It is just me? Is it just that I am losing faith in you guys too?I dont know.All I know is I am feeling totally miserable.I dont know how to get out of this mess and I dont know what went wrong.
I know I should be stronger but I just cant do it. I just cant stop hating myself or stop ill treating myself.I dont know why am I withdrawing from them too. Haiz.
I hate just being this way.I hate feeling all lost and out of control of the situation.I hate feeling fear.It is just like the past unfolding itself in the present.
Suddenly I dread going to school. I dont want to feel all those feelings.I hate feeling lonely. I had feeling just like an insignificant part of another group.
Do you know who are the loneliest people? Those people who are apparently in groups but dont really participate, smile as an encouragement, laugh just to feel fit in and observe because he/she cant participate.Those are the loneliest people.I feel that way now.
Yes. I am really glad that they are bonding real well. It really makes my day to see two good friends playing and having the fun of their life.It really brighten up my day to see everyone playing and seriously enjoying themselves.However, I cant help feeling lonely.
It is just me? Is it just that I am losing faith in you guys too?I dont know.All I know is I am feeling totally miserable.I dont know how to get out of this mess and I dont know what went wrong.
I know I should be stronger but I just cant do it. I just cant stop hating myself or stop ill treating myself.I dont know why am I withdrawing from them too. Haiz.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/03/2007 12:22:00 am
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