Thursday, June 28, 2007
I can't believed it happened again.
Haiz.
I hope the feeling wears off soon.
Je ne suis pas fait de verre.
Je vous aime
Haiz.
I hope the feeling wears off soon.
Je ne suis pas fait de verre.
Je vous aime
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/28/2007 12:46:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, June 25, 2007
You are a living reminder of what I did to get back at myself .
I just don't want to be reminded of it
Tell me what should I say that can end all this.
Do you really want me to be dreadfully honest?
I know how bad it feels to be ignored.
I feel worse.
then what on earth should I do with you?
I hate it when I cant make decisions because I don't wanna hurt anyone feelings.
What am I suppose to do?
Anyway. My mids are screwed.
I lack the brains and the spirit.
My brains been fry by a recent fever and my spirit been battered by painful ears, unappreciated phone calls, past, lack of sleep, excessive thoughts and you.
I just don't want to be reminded of it
Tell me what should I say that can end all this.
Do you really want me to be dreadfully honest?
I know how bad it feels to be ignored.
I feel worse.
then what on earth should I do with you?
I hate it when I cant make decisions because I don't wanna hurt anyone feelings.
What am I suppose to do?
Anyway. My mids are screwed.
I lack the brains and the spirit.
My brains been fry by a recent fever and my spirit been battered by painful ears, unappreciated phone calls, past, lack of sleep, excessive thoughts and you.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/25/2007 09:11:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, June 22, 2007
It's hard not to think about the past ,yeah?
I had a date with Zhengong today. The usual , of course! What do we do when we aren't watching movie, playing arcade, taking meals or shopping?
Play badminton =D
She has been my badminton pal since quite a long time? I realised that if I set my mind on it, I can talk about a lot of happy things that happened this year for 3 hours.Yeah, I was not studying for three hours.
It just felt as if we were back to when I was secondary two, right before everything kicked start.
Anyway,she apologised to me about a matter that happened ages back, which simply shocked me.She chose the most interesting time to and she just broached the subject without any prior warning. I had never, in my whole entire life, expected it from her. It wasnt her fault.The one I expected to help was not her but another since Zhengong had more important duties to attend to.Anyway, I didn't even know she was there.However, I guessed, it bugged her in a way ,but it is unjustifiable.
What does she have to feel contrite about? She was there when I most needed her, during times when I could not add to the burden of my family by divulging how I felt,especially during the times when they were forcing me to recall it so much that I went totally bonkers.
I don't remember having a better friend than her=D
Anyway, fears being getting the better of me again.
Yes, I am afraid of being in my own house again.
Yes, I am having nightmares again.
Yes, I am sleeping in the day again.
Of all times. Well done.
I had a date with Zhengong today. The usual , of course! What do we do when we aren't watching movie, playing arcade, taking meals or shopping?
Play badminton =D
She has been my badminton pal since quite a long time? I realised that if I set my mind on it, I can talk about a lot of happy things that happened this year for 3 hours.Yeah, I was not studying for three hours.
It just felt as if we were back to when I was secondary two, right before everything kicked start.
Anyway,she apologised to me about a matter that happened ages back, which simply shocked me.She chose the most interesting time to and she just broached the subject without any prior warning. I had never, in my whole entire life, expected it from her. It wasnt her fault.The one I expected to help was not her but another since Zhengong had more important duties to attend to.Anyway, I didn't even know she was there.However, I guessed, it bugged her in a way ,but it is unjustifiable.
What does she have to feel contrite about? She was there when I most needed her, during times when I could not add to the burden of my family by divulging how I felt,especially during the times when they were forcing me to recall it so much that I went totally bonkers.
I don't remember having a better friend than her=D
Anyway, fears being getting the better of me again.
Yes, I am afraid of being in my own house again.
Yes, I am having nightmares again.
Yes, I am sleeping in the day again.
Of all times. Well done.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/22/2007 02:57:00 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
You don't bother me no more =D
I am falling in love with five for fighting!!!! You should look at their lyrics. Terrific.
The song that caught my attention was "Love song".It's a domestic issue. It's about the parents divorcing well ,there is no way they can turn back because the Dad was going to married another woman. (He says i found another fish in the sea) and the mum takes his brother and leaves the family.The child is hurt, he ask his parents why do they want to leave him and why do they want to harm him. Yes, it sheds light on the issue of wrecked marriages. The one who will suffer the most will always be the children.
Now, so what is love all about? I dont know.
Then there is another song, "Freedom sings". Fantastic song. I am definitely going to purchase the album. Oh ya, the song is a bit on the blue side. I think you probably can guess if you have heard "Superman" and "100 year" .
Five for fighting rocks.
Sometimes, I feel that I can be so unfeeling if I want to. I sort of feel that way after reading someone's blog. HAHA.Whatever it is, we are both happy with what we are doing and that's all that matter.
Yeah, I heard that he went for piloting and made in. I was elated to know that.It has finally come to a proper end i guess.
Anyway ,whatever will be will be, because I know God has his reasons.
Night everyone.
I am falling in love with five for fighting!!!! You should look at their lyrics. Terrific.
The song that caught my attention was "Love song".It's a domestic issue. It's about the parents divorcing well ,there is no way they can turn back because the Dad was going to married another woman. (He says i found another fish in the sea) and the mum takes his brother and leaves the family.The child is hurt, he ask his parents why do they want to leave him and why do they want to harm him. Yes, it sheds light on the issue of wrecked marriages. The one who will suffer the most will always be the children.
Now, so what is love all about? I dont know.
Then there is another song, "Freedom sings". Fantastic song. I am definitely going to purchase the album. Oh ya, the song is a bit on the blue side. I think you probably can guess if you have heard "Superman" and "100 year" .
Five for fighting rocks.
Sometimes, I feel that I can be so unfeeling if I want to. I sort of feel that way after reading someone's blog. HAHA.Whatever it is, we are both happy with what we are doing and that's all that matter.
Yeah, I heard that he went for piloting and made in. I was elated to know that.It has finally come to a proper end i guess.
Anyway ,whatever will be will be, because I know God has his reasons.
Night everyone.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/20/2007 12:57:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, June 18, 2007
I haven't blog in a million years.That's kind of an overstatement but well. I am extremely satisfied to be able to use the Internet on my newly created network. At least my hard work wasn't a waste.The only problem left is the Internet connection of my desktop.
Yeah i just purchase my first laptop. The previous ones don't belong to me and I am so proud of it.Initially i was looking for a Vaio laptop because I like the design but I settled for an acer one because of it's excellent configuration.
With it's 2048Mb ram, Intel (R) core duo CPU @ 2.ooGB ,Ge Force 8600m GT and Dolby virtual surround sound, I couldn't help but like it. Vaio don't offer such a good combination.The only drawback it has is it's weight. It's an entertainment lap top with a 15.4 " screen and weights at about 2.6 kg, definitely not suitable to be brought out.
Away from the configurations of my lappy, well i went to Malaysia to visit my relatives. My great grandma and well all the other greats.Actually I don't see a point in visiting them, they do not care if we exist or not and I am not as forgiving as my mother.
If you want to know why gambling and drinking are vices, you just have to stay with them.I had to accompany my parents and i had fun playing with Apple and Blackie.
The last time I visited was about five years back. Apple was still healthy and simply adorable. Blackie, well hyperactive.When I stayed at my Great Aunt's house again this year, Apple don't walk fine but Blackie is still as hype active as ever.
Blackie is a cross bred between a Dalmatian and a sauage dog. As his name suggest, he is totally black, slight shorter than a Dalmatian and has a long body.He body resembles a Dalmatian , so is his character.
Yeah, I only miss the two dog that stay at my Great aunt's house, my cousins and my aunt. Thats all.
Oh ya, when they say drinking and smoking is bad for you health,I really wonder.My great grandpa was nearly a century old and he smokes and drinks like no one's business. He died in his sleep peacefully. As usual, I didnt attend the funeral.
I shall go back and study.
Yeah i just purchase my first laptop. The previous ones don't belong to me and I am so proud of it.Initially i was looking for a Vaio laptop because I like the design but I settled for an acer one because of it's excellent configuration.
With it's 2048Mb ram, Intel (R) core duo CPU @ 2.ooGB ,Ge Force 8600m GT and Dolby virtual surround sound, I couldn't help but like it. Vaio don't offer such a good combination.The only drawback it has is it's weight. It's an entertainment lap top with a 15.4 " screen and weights at about 2.6 kg, definitely not suitable to be brought out.
Away from the configurations of my lappy, well i went to Malaysia to visit my relatives. My great grandma and well all the other greats.Actually I don't see a point in visiting them, they do not care if we exist or not and I am not as forgiving as my mother.
If you want to know why gambling and drinking are vices, you just have to stay with them.I had to accompany my parents and i had fun playing with Apple and Blackie.
The last time I visited was about five years back. Apple was still healthy and simply adorable. Blackie, well hyperactive.When I stayed at my Great Aunt's house again this year, Apple don't walk fine but Blackie is still as hype active as ever.
Blackie is a cross bred between a Dalmatian and a sauage dog. As his name suggest, he is totally black, slight shorter than a Dalmatian and has a long body.He body resembles a Dalmatian , so is his character.
Yeah, I only miss the two dog that stay at my Great aunt's house, my cousins and my aunt. Thats all.
Oh ya, when they say drinking and smoking is bad for you health,I really wonder.My great grandpa was nearly a century old and he smokes and drinks like no one's business. He died in his sleep peacefully. As usual, I didnt attend the funeral.
I shall go back and study.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/18/2007 02:47:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities