if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Friday, June 22, 2007

It's hard not to think about the past ,yeah?



I had a date with Zhengong today. The usual , of course! What do we do when we aren't watching movie, playing arcade, taking meals or shopping?

Play badminton =D

She has been my badminton pal since quite a long time? I realised that if I set my mind on it, I can talk about a lot of happy things that happened this year for 3 hours.Yeah, I was not studying for three hours.

It just felt as if we were back to when I was secondary two, right before everything kicked start.





Anyway,she apologised to me about a matter that happened ages back, which simply shocked me.She chose the most interesting time to and she just broached the subject without any prior warning. I had never, in my whole entire life, expected it from her. It wasnt her fault.The one I expected to help was not her but another since Zhengong had more important duties to attend to.Anyway, I didn't even know she was there.However, I guessed, it bugged her in a way ,but it is unjustifiable.



What does she have to feel contrite about? She was there when I most needed her, during times when I could not add to the burden of my family by divulging how I felt,especially during the times when they were forcing me to recall it so much that I went totally bonkers.

I don't remember having a better friend than her=D



Anyway, fears being getting the better of me again.
Yes, I am afraid of being in my own house again.
Yes, I am having nightmares again.
Yes, I am sleeping in the day again.

Of all times. Well done.

i know that i have loved you ... at 6/22/2007 02:57:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

^reminds;me*of

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