Monday, July 30, 2007
I am dreading that tomorrow will come. We usually know what to do to prevent ourselves from getting into hot soup, yet some of us had to get into trouble.
I know what I want to be, but I just cannot materialised it. It feels as if it is moving further and further away from me with each step I take.Now, I feel as if I am not good enough to be what I wanted to be.
I am trying to trust the people who is around me, which I find it a chore to do so. Most people have proven that they cannot be trusted, I hope this time it will be fine. Sometimes, I really detest the feeling of vulnerability in front of others.It is a rather novel feeling to me and I cannot help feeling paranoid about it.
I don't want to be ocd or paranoid over anything, it is really unsettling and extremely irritating. But what can I do? Just lots of questions and no answers.
Zhengong used to coaxed me in the past because I usually get overly worried for her when I confide in her.
Then again, we usually talk rubbish because half the time I don't need someone to know my pains. I just need someone to be there to talk to.I dont need anyone to help me solve my problems because they are hurdles that I have to eventually cross by myself. Secondly, if the person attempts to solve my problems, she/he will be affected by it.
Yes, I am really glad to meet all my friends.
Thank you , Lord.
I know what I want to be, but I just cannot materialised it. It feels as if it is moving further and further away from me with each step I take.Now, I feel as if I am not good enough to be what I wanted to be.
I am trying to trust the people who is around me, which I find it a chore to do so. Most people have proven that they cannot be trusted, I hope this time it will be fine. Sometimes, I really detest the feeling of vulnerability in front of others.It is a rather novel feeling to me and I cannot help feeling paranoid about it.
I don't want to be ocd or paranoid over anything, it is really unsettling and extremely irritating. But what can I do? Just lots of questions and no answers.
Zhengong used to coaxed me in the past because I usually get overly worried for her when I confide in her.
Then again, we usually talk rubbish because half the time I don't need someone to know my pains. I just need someone to be there to talk to.I dont need anyone to help me solve my problems because they are hurdles that I have to eventually cross by myself. Secondly, if the person attempts to solve my problems, she/he will be affected by it.
Yes, I am really glad to meet all my friends.
Thank you , Lord.
i know that i have loved you ... at 7/30/2007 04:47:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
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