Wednesday, August 15, 2007
I just had to clean up my table today and I had to rearrange my neoprints. This is a picture taken with my hk buddies. The ones in blue are from HK.We were on this attachment programme and it was held in Xinmin Sec.
Don't look like I did much arranging did I ? Anyway, all these neoprints were taken when I was secondary 2, 3 and 4.
so were these .
Yeah, looking back I miss all those times. My tuition buddies, my "family" and a lot of other people.I can't remember how was it then, but I know that I enjoyed my secondary two year the most because of them.
My closest buddy then is still in the same jc as me, but things have changed so much since then. We have forgotten about the laughter we used to share, the jokes and the really hilarious stuffs that happened to us then. We have forgotten how was it we felt on the last day of school when we had to say good bye to our class 2E3'04. We have forgotten the times when we used to watch movies and play arcade together. All we ever remember is that we are not talking to each other.
I am not upset about anything, because I am way past that. I just feel it is kind of a waste.It is just super childish.
Porcupines in the cold.
Humans really behave just like that. I know I do. We need to be close to each other for warmth but when we run to each other, we get hurt by the each other pricks and are forced to run away from each other. When we are forced to be away from each other, we are driven by the cold to each other again.
If you ask me, I shall call it the dance of the porcupines. It has become a ritual.
I don't want to feel that way, but I cannot help it.It is through no fault of yours that I feel that way.I am just hurt by my own prick.
I realised that it is always better to be not too honest with each other in any type of relationships because instead of building rapport, it will severely damaged it. I don't tell Rourou about every single thing that is bugging me and we enjoy being together. It is only with her, Sie fen and banquet that I still see myself.I enjoy being with them because I can be me, not anyone else.
Sometimes, I just want to hide under my table and forget everything, like what I do in the past.
No mask, no need to please anyone , no hurt, just me and god.
i know that i have loved you ... at 8/15/2007 11:58:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities