Sunday, January 27, 2008
"Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love
like You have love me
I totally like this stanza of the song "Hosanna" by Hillsongs.
Only He can show it to me and teach me how to love again.
I had a crippling sense of inferiority this week, coupled with guilt, it exploded right at my face.
Yeah, it became cold and freezing inside.
My friend's anger affirmed it and things really started to spiral down for a while.
It's kinda super irritating.
I am like feeling super freakishly emo because I feel like a scum, a piece of trash and etc etc
The feelings are mostly induced because I refused to let go of my past.
It makes me feel so...
To make matters worse, my mind was hindered by pain and constant headaches.
Anyway, I really want to praise Lord.
Because all I need is You.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into Eternity"
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love
like You have love me
I totally like this stanza of the song "Hosanna" by Hillsongs.
Only He can show it to me and teach me how to love again.
I had a crippling sense of inferiority this week, coupled with guilt, it exploded right at my face.
Yeah, it became cold and freezing inside.
My friend's anger affirmed it and things really started to spiral down for a while.
It's kinda super irritating.
I am like feeling super freakishly emo because I feel like a scum, a piece of trash and etc etc
The feelings are mostly induced because I refused to let go of my past.
It makes me feel so...
To make matters worse, my mind was hindered by pain and constant headaches.
Anyway, I really want to praise Lord.
Because all I need is You.
Break my heart for what breaks Yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into Eternity"
i know that i have loved you ... at 1/27/2008 11:11:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, January 07, 2008
School has been fine ever since I realised it was better to let go.
I have set my priorities right, what is more important now is that I don't fret over other mundane stuffs like school but really channel all my energy on God, A levels and my family.
Well, the year of Sabbath don't really mean much to me since I didn't really engage in many spiritual battles last year but I look forward to enjoy the intimacy between the Lord and me.
Someone asked ,"Would you still follow Him if everyone around you turn their backs on Him?"
The first answer that came into my mind was Yes, I would. He is so real in my life that I will never turn my back on Him again.He planned so many things that I don't understand in my life, put me through the trial but has never forsaken me even though I had never accepted Him as my Lord and savior then.
Lord wanted to mend the relations in my family but He knew I could not bring the dark out to the light so He gave me people to help me do so and gave me physical friends to help me through this period.
I finally realise His ways are higher than our. He has a purpose for everything he puts us through in life but we may not understand His intentions. So just put your trust in Him because He has only plans to prosper you and not to harm you.
Yeah yeah..
Thats' all.
I have set my priorities right, what is more important now is that I don't fret over other mundane stuffs like school but really channel all my energy on God, A levels and my family.
Well, the year of Sabbath don't really mean much to me since I didn't really engage in many spiritual battles last year but I look forward to enjoy the intimacy between the Lord and me.
Someone asked ,"Would you still follow Him if everyone around you turn their backs on Him?"
The first answer that came into my mind was Yes, I would. He is so real in my life that I will never turn my back on Him again.He planned so many things that I don't understand in my life, put me through the trial but has never forsaken me even though I had never accepted Him as my Lord and savior then.
Lord wanted to mend the relations in my family but He knew I could not bring the dark out to the light so He gave me people to help me do so and gave me physical friends to help me through this period.
I finally realise His ways are higher than our. He has a purpose for everything he puts us through in life but we may not understand His intentions. So just put your trust in Him because He has only plans to prosper you and not to harm you.
Yeah yeah..
Thats' all.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1/07/2008 10:09:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
It's the second day of the new year yet I havent set my goals for this year.
I shall wrapped up my 2007 first.
2007 ended with a bang as I celebrated my first new year with my cell group.
They were super sporty =)
Super super nice la ... hahax.
How was 2007 for me?
I met a lot of fantastic people.. there's my cell, my first three month class, og 3 , my guzheng seniors..
and most importantly.. I met god =)
I wouldn't say I had changed a lot but I now start to live my life a little different from how I used to live.
For one thing, I learn to trust , I learn to hope and I learn to rely.
Finally the goal that I had set for many years had been achieved.
I am stepping on the path of recovery.
I pass my promos.
Praise god that I managed to achieved all my goals.
Well.. there were the downs.
I think things will be even better this year =)
Thats' all fo 2007
Anyway
I had a Deja vu many years back and well..
it was abt the countdown party.
Thru the revelation that I had this dream many years ago made me realise that god planned everything.
Two years ago, I would never had believing in god and I would have never take an art combi
I thought it was my reckless decision to change to take an all art comb cos I am realli very sci person.
it turn out that god had planned it =)
If I had went to the science stream.. I wouldnt have meet my friend and I would not have accept christ or be at the countdown party..
It's a relief to know this =)
I shall wrapped up my 2007 first.
2007 ended with a bang as I celebrated my first new year with my cell group.
They were super sporty =)
Super super nice la ... hahax.
How was 2007 for me?
I met a lot of fantastic people.. there's my cell, my first three month class, og 3 , my guzheng seniors..
and most importantly.. I met god =)
I wouldn't say I had changed a lot but I now start to live my life a little different from how I used to live.
For one thing, I learn to trust , I learn to hope and I learn to rely.
Finally the goal that I had set for many years had been achieved.
I am stepping on the path of recovery.
I pass my promos.
Praise god that I managed to achieved all my goals.
Well.. there were the downs.
I think things will be even better this year =)
Thats' all fo 2007
Anyway
I had a Deja vu many years back and well..
it was abt the countdown party.
Thru the revelation that I had this dream many years ago made me realise that god planned everything.
Two years ago, I would never had believing in god and I would have never take an art combi
I thought it was my reckless decision to change to take an all art comb cos I am realli very sci person.
it turn out that god had planned it =)
If I had went to the science stream.. I wouldnt have meet my friend and I would not have accept christ or be at the countdown party..
It's a relief to know this =)
i know that i have loved you ... at 1/02/2008 09:29:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities