Wednesday, June 25, 2008
I decided to be a considerate ex-classmate and went to check up on how my ex-classmates are faring.
So I did a little blog-hopping.
I guess I'am just blessed in the most funny way after I've read their blogs.
I've never experienced heartache from breaking up in the past.
Never went through the break up period.
Because I have never truly fell in love.
I was thinking really hard today.
It really makes me upset to know that others have to go through heartaches and...
Just because they do not know God.
I know the people whom I have blog hopped will never read this.
Thank goodness.
But, I will make a commitment to pray for both of you every single day.
It's just so upsetting.
So I did a little blog-hopping.
I guess I'am just blessed in the most funny way after I've read their blogs.
I've never experienced heartache from breaking up in the past.
Never went through the break up period.
Because I have never truly fell in love.
I was thinking really hard today.
It really makes me upset to know that others have to go through heartaches and...
Just because they do not know God.
I know the people whom I have blog hopped will never read this.
Thank goodness.
But, I will make a commitment to pray for both of you every single day.
It's just so upsetting.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/25/2008 08:06:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, June 20, 2008
Ho ho ho.
I' m sick again.
Down with a cold and a cough.
So I'm like wheezing like an old man.
I think I behave like one too.
When I move a little,
*crack*
think that was my back
*crack*
think that was my knees
*whiff*
That was my nose
*Cough whiff Crack Crack Ouch*
That's what happens when I tried to cough and sneeze.
Was sick for a consecutive number of days.
Start with a stomach, then my back now and finally a cold.
Oh well...
I'll take care of myself.
God spoke to me about my calling.
It didn't surprise my family.
It came as a surprise to me because I never thought of it.
Most of my friends in secondary school aspire to be in that profession.
I just never thought that one day I might to.
Just like I never thought I might in the future settle down.
I firmly believe that God wants to bless me
so I can hope and anticipate what the future would be.
Approaching the month of July,
I think for once I shall be determined to enjoy my days to the fullest =D
Oh yeah,
Someone shocked me by asking me is my birthday around the corner.
Then I had to checked my ez link to make sure I didn't get my date wrongly.
I guess that's why I am anticipating.
Because this time round it is going to be a fresh new start for me
I' m sick again.
Down with a cold and a cough.
So I'm like wheezing like an old man.
I think I behave like one too.
When I move a little,
*crack*
think that was my back
*crack*
think that was my knees
*whiff*
That was my nose
*Cough whiff Crack Crack Ouch*
That's what happens when I tried to cough and sneeze.
Was sick for a consecutive number of days.
Start with a stomach, then my back now and finally a cold.
Oh well...
I'll take care of myself.
God spoke to me about my calling.
It didn't surprise my family.
It came as a surprise to me because I never thought of it.
Most of my friends in secondary school aspire to be in that profession.
I just never thought that one day I might to.
Just like I never thought I might in the future settle down.
I firmly believe that God wants to bless me
so I can hope and anticipate what the future would be.
Approaching the month of July,
I think for once I shall be determined to enjoy my days to the fullest =D
Oh yeah,
Someone shocked me by asking me is my birthday around the corner.
Then I had to checked my ez link to make sure I didn't get my date wrongly.
I guess that's why I am anticipating.
Because this time round it is going to be a fresh new start for me
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/20/2008 12:32:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
It's the last few days to mids
I don't have any inspiration to even pick up something to study.
A lack of drive at this time is highly disturbing.
Anyway, told my mum that I will be underperforming.
It's mids...
And I got no idea how to prepare.
Hahax... sounds really like my previous mids.
When I blur blur went into my examination hall to take my mids.
It was terribly done anyway, ranking points of 19?
Hahaz.
Okie... I must try to brain wash myself to study.
So as to maintain at least a ranking point of 50.
I giving up on lit...
Really think I cant make it.
I don't have any inspiration to even pick up something to study.
A lack of drive at this time is highly disturbing.
Anyway, told my mum that I will be underperforming.
It's mids...
And I got no idea how to prepare.
Hahax... sounds really like my previous mids.
When I blur blur went into my examination hall to take my mids.
It was terribly done anyway, ranking points of 19?
Hahaz.
Okie... I must try to brain wash myself to study.
So as to maintain at least a ranking point of 50.
I giving up on lit...
Really think I cant make it.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/18/2008 04:17:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, June 03, 2008
Of recent, My mum and my Dad were arguing each other in the living room.
Naturally, I felt crippled by fear because of certain memories in the past.
Made me feel helpless, guilty and shaken...
Feelings that I haven't experience for exactly 3 years.
Mummy ,out of irrational anger, said some stuffs that made me really upset.
Well, it spark off forgotten memories and unrelieved feelings.
Back to the time, when I was sec 3.
Wanted to end my life unnaturally then or was literally waiting to die.
Because I used to be the reason that my parents fought.
Due to my reluctance to live out a normal life then,
well, I watch them argue and fight every single morning just to get me to school.
My dad would ask my mum to leave me alone because he cares for me and my mum would drag me out of my bed because she love me enough to want me to get on with life.
And all I wanna is to be left alone to rot.
My mum reminded me of something she said once when the fight was the worst.
All of a sudden, memories just flooded in.
Really negative emotions too...
I remembered why I wanted to climb onto the ledge then.
I felt that I was a burden and a problem to my family.
That if I had not exist, a lot of problems wouldn't exist.
I had long forgotten those feelings till recently.
I thank God for reminding me of it because I can see His blessings in my life and I need to totally forgive so that I can get rid of those chains that have bound me.
Never enjoyed the tranquility of the night or observe the activties of the night till recently.
Cos I am no longer preoccupied with other thoughts.
I know that God has a purpose for me =)
Naturally, I felt crippled by fear because of certain memories in the past.
Made me feel helpless, guilty and shaken...
Feelings that I haven't experience for exactly 3 years.
Mummy ,out of irrational anger, said some stuffs that made me really upset.
Well, it spark off forgotten memories and unrelieved feelings.
Back to the time, when I was sec 3.
Wanted to end my life unnaturally then or was literally waiting to die.
Because I used to be the reason that my parents fought.
Due to my reluctance to live out a normal life then,
well, I watch them argue and fight every single morning just to get me to school.
My dad would ask my mum to leave me alone because he cares for me and my mum would drag me out of my bed because she love me enough to want me to get on with life.
And all I wanna is to be left alone to rot.
My mum reminded me of something she said once when the fight was the worst.
All of a sudden, memories just flooded in.
Really negative emotions too...
I remembered why I wanted to climb onto the ledge then.
I felt that I was a burden and a problem to my family.
That if I had not exist, a lot of problems wouldn't exist.
I had long forgotten those feelings till recently.
I thank God for reminding me of it because I can see His blessings in my life and I need to totally forgive so that I can get rid of those chains that have bound me.
Never enjoyed the tranquility of the night or observe the activties of the night till recently.
Cos I am no longer preoccupied with other thoughts.
I know that God has a purpose for me =)
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/03/2008 03:31:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, June 01, 2008
I got all emo over pictures of HANDWRITTING!
I can't believe it.
I guess,
Some where deep inside me, I still miss you very much.
I think that it's unnatural that I can miss someone that much.
But I guess there are exceptions.
So many things happened recently that always reminds me of you.
Can't help it, because the situation is just too similar.
Then it reminds me of you.
Well, they were very different from you but the circumstances made me think of you.
In fact,
I wanted to send you a letter, thanking you for all you've done.
Just didn't have the courage to.
I know I shouldn't dwell too much in the past.
Just cant forget the fact I owe you a lot.
I remember there was once you helped me,
and I walked away from you without a single word.
never did apologise for throwing temper at you.
I remember that you once stay up to do a gift for me,
The only one actually and it sits on my table everyday,
since you gave it to me for my 16th birthday.
Should have told you then,
I wasn't worth the time and effort.
Even though I betrayed your trust, you helped me onto the road of recovery.
I want to find a chance to apologise and thank you properly.
For your time and all your effort.
I can't believe it.
I guess,
Some where deep inside me, I still miss you very much.
I think that it's unnatural that I can miss someone that much.
But I guess there are exceptions.
So many things happened recently that always reminds me of you.
Can't help it, because the situation is just too similar.
Then it reminds me of you.
Well, they were very different from you but the circumstances made me think of you.
In fact,
I wanted to send you a letter, thanking you for all you've done.
Just didn't have the courage to.
I know I shouldn't dwell too much in the past.
Just cant forget the fact I owe you a lot.
I remember there was once you helped me,
and I walked away from you without a single word.
never did apologise for throwing temper at you.
I remember that you once stay up to do a gift for me,
The only one actually and it sits on my table everyday,
since you gave it to me for my 16th birthday.
Should have told you then,
I wasn't worth the time and effort.
Even though I betrayed your trust, you helped me onto the road of recovery.
I want to find a chance to apologise and thank you properly.
For your time and all your effort.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/01/2008 12:19:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities