Thursday, September 11, 2008
I walk with You in my heart
You find me at the cross
Down on my knees
Thank you Lord for saving me.
Falling in love with Jesus again.
Sat at desk because I couldn't sleep.
It was the second night of not sleeping at all.
So I was running on pure nerves and pain for more than 48 hours.
Feeling trashed, like pain and aches and low in spirit.
My sister was also telling me how shitty I am as a sister[ more than the usual bitching, like a real heart to heart talk because our way of affection is to tell each other we don't like each other ], like being super impatient with her for teaching her and I was being terribly horrible by wanting to act like a stupid bratty child.
I felt totally horrid.
And I felt God embracing me while I cried.
I can never understand why He loves me so much. It's just beyond logic and I am not writting this out of self - conciousness.
I just don't think that I really deserve being loved to that extent.
Still counting all the blessings.
my sister was telling me about my friend and I can't help but thank god.
To thank god for each well-placed friend to bring me out of my own emotional cage then.
To thank god that I only hurt myself by pure accident, the claying knife nicked me on my finger.
To thank god that I can truly live in freedom.
Here I stand forgiven
You find me at the cross
Down on my knees
Thank you Lord for saving me.
Falling in love with Jesus again.
Sat at desk because I couldn't sleep.
It was the second night of not sleeping at all.
So I was running on pure nerves and pain for more than 48 hours.
Feeling trashed, like pain and aches and low in spirit.
My sister was also telling me how shitty I am as a sister[ more than the usual bitching, like a real heart to heart talk because our way of affection is to tell each other we don't like each other ], like being super impatient with her for teaching her and I was being terribly horrible by wanting to act like a stupid bratty child.
I felt totally horrid.
And I felt God embracing me while I cried.
I can never understand why He loves me so much. It's just beyond logic and I am not writting this out of self - conciousness.
I just don't think that I really deserve being loved to that extent.
Still counting all the blessings.
my sister was telling me about my friend and I can't help but thank god.
To thank god for each well-placed friend to bring me out of my own emotional cage then.
To thank god that I only hurt myself by pure accident, the claying knife nicked me on my finger.
To thank god that I can truly live in freedom.
Here I stand forgiven
i know that i have loved you ... at 9/11/2008 11:10:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities