Monday, December 29, 2008
I realised that I need to have a lot more output.
I'm getting lazy from the lack of activity. Hahax.. oh well.
I'm getting lazy from the lack of activity. Hahax.. oh well.
i know that i have loved you ... at 12/29/2008 10:52:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I'm back from a sudden and quick trip to Malaysia and my secondary 4 class chalet.
I'll start with the bizarre trip to Malaysia.
It was more hurried than usual because we haven't really decided to go even up to the hour before we left for Malaysia.
Amazing right?
We packed everything we need for a three to five day journey in about an hour.
I really can't believe the stuffs I have to carry just because I'm still sick.
Anyway, I think in all the trip was a really blessed and meaningful trip for my family.
We saw the hand of God in the many things we did and it just reaffirms my faith.
Sometimes, I can't help doubting and thinking but God never lets me go.
He just reminds me that he is real in my life by blessing my family and I enormously.
Well, the next thing is my secondary four class chalet.
I didn't realise how much I had missed them till I saw most of them socialising under one same roof.
The feeling is just so good to see everyone chatting and joking with each other (in fluent mandarin of course) just like how we did in the past.
I'm surprised that I could still speak to them.
I never had so much fun watching others catching toys.
Anyway, the chalet ended for me in a rather meaningful way.
I met my Chinese sec 4 teacher, Miss Sun on the bus as I was travelling back home.
We began chatting about the teachers and about my classmates and she was delighted to know that my class even had a successful chalet together.
I realised that most of the teachers that I'm rather familiar with have left Xinmin.
Some have promoted, some have quited, some have transferred.
But I guess some things just never change,
like how the sec 2 students will be promoted to performing group
and how the performing group would be preparing for SYF and orientation.
The cycle of secondary life, I would say.
Anyway,
Yi lin made me relaised that I'm still very insensitive and ignorant.
Deep in my heart, I really wish to mend that broken relationship but I don't have the ability or the intelligence to.
Yes, I haven't forgotten about you.
To be honest, I don't even know what had happened between the both of us.
And I guess I'll never know if you choose to tell everyone but me.
Maybe I should be contented with it and let time wash away all the memories I once shared with you.
Lest I start harassing you and cause you even more grievance.
I remembered that you were once my best friend when I was secondary 1 and 2 and that we mysteriously stopped talking when I was in my third year.
We were classmates for two years and we used to spend a lot of time together then.
I wish that we could just talk.
I want to know why did you walk out on me at the time I most needed help.
Did you not want my companionship because I was no longer fun to be with?
Or did something just happened?
Yi lin was right.
For such a long time, I've been bitter about it and I had blamed you unjustifiably for it.
Because in my eyes then, you walked out on me when my world turned upside down and I had lost faith and confidence in everything.
I was blinded for a long long time and had refused to acknowledge that you weren't such a person.
I'm really sorry.
I pray that one day we can really resolve everything between us.
And keep on hoping that one day we can find it in our hearts to do so.
I'll start with the bizarre trip to Malaysia.
It was more hurried than usual because we haven't really decided to go even up to the hour before we left for Malaysia.
Amazing right?
We packed everything we need for a three to five day journey in about an hour.
I really can't believe the stuffs I have to carry just because I'm still sick.
Anyway, I think in all the trip was a really blessed and meaningful trip for my family.
We saw the hand of God in the many things we did and it just reaffirms my faith.
Sometimes, I can't help doubting and thinking but God never lets me go.
He just reminds me that he is real in my life by blessing my family and I enormously.
Well, the next thing is my secondary four class chalet.
I didn't realise how much I had missed them till I saw most of them socialising under one same roof.
The feeling is just so good to see everyone chatting and joking with each other (in fluent mandarin of course) just like how we did in the past.
I'm surprised that I could still speak to them.
I never had so much fun watching others catching toys.
Anyway, the chalet ended for me in a rather meaningful way.
I met my Chinese sec 4 teacher, Miss Sun on the bus as I was travelling back home.
We began chatting about the teachers and about my classmates and she was delighted to know that my class even had a successful chalet together.
I realised that most of the teachers that I'm rather familiar with have left Xinmin.
Some have promoted, some have quited, some have transferred.
But I guess some things just never change,
like how the sec 2 students will be promoted to performing group
and how the performing group would be preparing for SYF and orientation.
The cycle of secondary life, I would say.
Anyway,
Yi lin made me relaised that I'm still very insensitive and ignorant.
Deep in my heart, I really wish to mend that broken relationship but I don't have the ability or the intelligence to.
Yes, I haven't forgotten about you.
To be honest, I don't even know what had happened between the both of us.
And I guess I'll never know if you choose to tell everyone but me.
Maybe I should be contented with it and let time wash away all the memories I once shared with you.
Lest I start harassing you and cause you even more grievance.
I remembered that you were once my best friend when I was secondary 1 and 2 and that we mysteriously stopped talking when I was in my third year.
We were classmates for two years and we used to spend a lot of time together then.
I wish that we could just talk.
I want to know why did you walk out on me at the time I most needed help.
Did you not want my companionship because I was no longer fun to be with?
Or did something just happened?
Yi lin was right.
For such a long time, I've been bitter about it and I had blamed you unjustifiably for it.
Because in my eyes then, you walked out on me when my world turned upside down and I had lost faith and confidence in everything.
I was blinded for a long long time and had refused to acknowledge that you weren't such a person.
I'm really sorry.
I pray that one day we can really resolve everything between us.
And keep on hoping that one day we can find it in our hearts to do so.
i know that i have loved you ... at 12/17/2008 03:23:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities