Friday, March 27, 2009
Life don't get any better than this.
With each new day, I coerced to decide between a path that is rocky and full of uncertainty or a path of defeat, living with gulit for being so irresponsible.
Sheesh, I just hate the way I live now.
Bowing down to my illness and accepting the consquences of surrendering.
Yet, I'm left with very little choice.
Ironically, the illness I'm talking about isn't something life threatening or big that people can understand. It's just a irritating illness that's been testing my will for close to a year.
Pain and more pain.
Sometimes, I can't comprehend why I should choose to fight so hard.
I can't help wondering about another choice.
One I should not think about it at all yet I don't think I have the energy to struggle in a meaningless battle.
Why is the choice to live such a difficult one to stick?
Stripped off the fascade of excitement and joy, I'm nothing.
Just another trying so hard to make each day work.
Just another trying to live.
I can't find it within me to spur myself not to give up.
Maybe it's time to let go.
With each new day, I coerced to decide between a path that is rocky and full of uncertainty or a path of defeat, living with gulit for being so irresponsible.
Sheesh, I just hate the way I live now.
Bowing down to my illness and accepting the consquences of surrendering.
Yet, I'm left with very little choice.
Ironically, the illness I'm talking about isn't something life threatening or big that people can understand. It's just a irritating illness that's been testing my will for close to a year.
Pain and more pain.
Sometimes, I can't comprehend why I should choose to fight so hard.
I can't help wondering about another choice.
One I should not think about it at all yet I don't think I have the energy to struggle in a meaningless battle.
Why is the choice to live such a difficult one to stick?
Stripped off the fascade of excitement and joy, I'm nothing.
Just another trying so hard to make each day work.
Just another trying to live.
I can't find it within me to spur myself not to give up.
Maybe it's time to let go.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/27/2009 11:42:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities