Monday, August 24, 2009
I've just got the feeling that I'm going to be out of job soon.
Really really soon.
Not that I harbour hope in staying in it permanently.
Then again,
I don't like the feeling of being so disposable.
Neither do I like the feeling as if I'm not contributing.
Saw an ex-schoolmate today on the train.
She was reading powerpoint slides on indifference curve.
Her brows were knitted in concentration as she seek to understand.
Can't imgaine why the scene was etched so deeply into my mind.
Maybe it's because two years ago, I sat in the library, excitedly pouring through the thick books available on the shelf about it.
Or maybe, it was because the same two years ago, I was excitedly discussing the points with my brother at home.
I need an output.
I need to start serving others.
Really really soon.
Not that I harbour hope in staying in it permanently.
Then again,
I don't like the feeling of being so disposable.
Neither do I like the feeling as if I'm not contributing.
Saw an ex-schoolmate today on the train.
She was reading powerpoint slides on indifference curve.
Her brows were knitted in concentration as she seek to understand.
Can't imgaine why the scene was etched so deeply into my mind.
Maybe it's because two years ago, I sat in the library, excitedly pouring through the thick books available on the shelf about it.
Or maybe, it was because the same two years ago, I was excitedly discussing the points with my brother at home.
I need an output.
I need to start serving others.
i know that i have loved you ... at 8/24/2009 10:00:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Speaking to friends these days gives me a sense of alienation for some odd reasons.
Maybe it's because we're in different seasons, the fact that we no longer speak the same wavelength or share the different opinions of a common experience which birthed such emotions.
It feels as if others have moved steadily along towards their goals, experiencing fresh things and growing as they explore.
I'm glad and happy they've moved on.
It doesn't soften the blow that I'm stuck in between, waiting for the next opportunity as I crossed the days of my calendar.
Coupled with sentimentality, it made everything worse.
Speaking to people don't help.
Like, I'm not being bei guan okay!
I dont need to be optimistic.
Maybe it's because we're in different seasons, the fact that we no longer speak the same wavelength or share the different opinions of a common experience which birthed such emotions.
It feels as if others have moved steadily along towards their goals, experiencing fresh things and growing as they explore.
I'm glad and happy they've moved on.
It doesn't soften the blow that I'm stuck in between, waiting for the next opportunity as I crossed the days of my calendar.
Coupled with sentimentality, it made everything worse.
Speaking to people don't help.
Like, I'm not being bei guan okay!
I dont need to be optimistic.
i know that i have loved you ... at 8/15/2009 10:30:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities