Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Seeing her in the advertisement for Te Xie, reminded me that Guzheng has more than them.
However, I don't think I see a need to attend.
I think in the past I probably be dying to see them but I guess there isnt a need le.
What can we even say to each other?
Since Zhengong not going then I shall not go too.
I do hope they post pictures =)
Three years have past le.
I don't even remember what they look like le or what kind of person they are.
I found that I was wallowing in self-pity that I cannot remember who they really were.
Maybe at one point of time, we were really good friends=)
Every single time I play my guzheng,
I remember how you used to coach me along in class with that stern look.
I remember the very first song I passed without failing.
Cai ca pu die
I could not play guzheng today if there wasn't a you.
You know it, don't you?
However, I don't think I see a need to attend.
I think in the past I probably be dying to see them but I guess there isnt a need le.
What can we even say to each other?
Since Zhengong not going then I shall not go too.
I do hope they post pictures =)
Three years have past le.
I don't even remember what they look like le or what kind of person they are.
I found that I was wallowing in self-pity that I cannot remember who they really were.
Maybe at one point of time, we were really good friends=)
Every single time I play my guzheng,
I remember how you used to coach me along in class with that stern look.
I remember the very first song I passed without failing.
Cai ca pu die
I could not play guzheng today if there wasn't a you.
You know it, don't you?
i know that i have loved you ... at 12/19/2007 10:37:00 pm
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Friday, December 07, 2007
I tried to brain wash my daddy to allow me to learn how to ride a motorcycle.
Guess what the answer was?
No =(
He rather let me learn how to drive.
Well, I spending almost all my time at home.
Cos it's kinda irritaing to go out these few days.
There are always so much people.
When there is people, there is too much noise and this cause my ears to hurt like lots.
It will be accompanied with numb jaws, bouts of giddyness and deafness.
So irritating la.
So might as well stay at home and read comics or play computer games.
Well, I think I shall see a doctor when my nose starts bleeding constantly,
until that day, I am so not gonna do that.
It is very painful and irritating to be put through a hearing test.
Well, they will put you in this tiny cubicle and place headphones on you.
and the silence of the cubicle is so loud till it is very painful on your ear.( I think it's air pressure)
Then you have to hear sirens and beeps of different frequency.
Um..it's really very painful on the ear la in short.
Anyway, Que sera la.
Why must all the important outings squeeze in a day?
Guess what the answer was?
No =(
He rather let me learn how to drive.
Well, I spending almost all my time at home.
Cos it's kinda irritaing to go out these few days.
There are always so much people.
When there is people, there is too much noise and this cause my ears to hurt like lots.
It will be accompanied with numb jaws, bouts of giddyness and deafness.
So irritating la.
So might as well stay at home and read comics or play computer games.
Well, I think I shall see a doctor when my nose starts bleeding constantly,
until that day, I am so not gonna do that.
It is very painful and irritating to be put through a hearing test.
Well, they will put you in this tiny cubicle and place headphones on you.
and the silence of the cubicle is so loud till it is very painful on your ear.( I think it's air pressure)
Then you have to hear sirens and beeps of different frequency.
Um..it's really very painful on the ear la in short.
Anyway, Que sera la.
Why must all the important outings squeeze in a day?
i know that i have loved you ... at 12/07/2007 01:32:00 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, December 04, 2007
In His embrace
I guess I just needed to hear the words from someone.I don't need people's pity and I don't want their everything-gonna-be-fine. Well, I don't need their I'm-sorry-to-hear-that either. And only You understand how I feel and only You love me for who I am.
Re-encountering that love I forgot, re-realising that He is the greatest friend I ever had, I feel that inexpressible joy bursting out of me.
And only He can make me feel this way=)
Only Him.
Well, besides still being sick, I guess I haven't done much this week.
But I have watched my life went in a flash.
I remembered things that I forgot like how much I used to desire for someone to understand, how much I wish to feel something, and how I used to crave to feel secure and loved.
I felt really shameful and regretful about what I used to do in the past.
My quest led me to find Him.
He's all that I need =)
I can't thank Him for giving me this circumstance or even for living yet.
But one day, I really want to thank Him for it.
Yeah, one day.
Re-encountering that love I forgot, re-realising that He is the greatest friend I ever had, I feel that inexpressible joy bursting out of me.
And only He can make me feel this way=)
Only Him.
Well, besides still being sick, I guess I haven't done much this week.
But I have watched my life went in a flash.
I remembered things that I forgot like how much I used to desire for someone to understand, how much I wish to feel something, and how I used to crave to feel secure and loved.
I felt really shameful and regretful about what I used to do in the past.
My quest led me to find Him.
He's all that I need =)
I can't thank Him for giving me this circumstance or even for living yet.
But one day, I really want to thank Him for it.
Yeah, one day.
i know that i have loved you ... at 12/04/2007 12:49:00 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, December 01, 2007
Of all times I have to fall ill, I missed attending a gathering of 0737, my good friend's birthday party and other stuffs.
Aww.. I really miss them very much leh.
Especially my first three month class.. I really miss them very very very very much.
I know that we will have a chance to meet each other again =)
Anyway, My daddy finally get to know about it!
Yeah, he finally gets to know that I am now attending church
=)
Hehe, my grandparents were passing me Bibles that day.
Now, I got quite a collection of it.
Most of them are my great grandma's Bibles.
There was one ancient Bible that was passed down from my great great grandfather to my grandfather , then to my mother and finally me.
It is about a 150 years in age and the pages are falling off.
Yeah, so old right?
It's a family tradition to write the date they receive the Bible,
thus we could tell its age.
The rest is about 50 years in age or older?
cos most of them belong to my great grandma.
Then my mother got back her very first Bible, the bible she used for her bible studies.
So well, we were flipping through the Bible eagerly because there were alot of stuffs in between them and they were well preserved.
Most of my family had back slided since after the death of my great grandma.
By the way, my family is made up of mostly of believers.
My great grandma was one of them.
She spends almost all her time in her later years with the Lord.
Read all her bible, praise the lord and enjoy life to the max every single day.
Anyway, she passed on to the next world peacefully when she was reading her bible many years before I was born.
It was this strong faith that kept my mum's family together.
Well, the rest is history.
Sometimes, I feel that choosing to follow Him is a task because of all the expectations.
Sometimes, I feel as if I like trying my best to be, but I cant.
I cant hear Him anymore.
I don't feel His presence when I worship or read the bible.
Sometimes, I find it quite tough to be born in a family with pre-believers and used to be believers.
Well..I know everything will be fine.
cos Lord has shown me that everything on earth will end one day.
Nothing last forever=)
Aww.. I really miss them very much leh.
Especially my first three month class.. I really miss them very very very very much.
I know that we will have a chance to meet each other again =)
Anyway, My daddy finally get to know about it!
Yeah, he finally gets to know that I am now attending church
=)
Hehe, my grandparents were passing me Bibles that day.
Now, I got quite a collection of it.
Most of them are my great grandma's Bibles.
There was one ancient Bible that was passed down from my great great grandfather to my grandfather , then to my mother and finally me.
It is about a 150 years in age and the pages are falling off.
Yeah, so old right?
It's a family tradition to write the date they receive the Bible,
thus we could tell its age.
The rest is about 50 years in age or older?
cos most of them belong to my great grandma.
Then my mother got back her very first Bible, the bible she used for her bible studies.
So well, we were flipping through the Bible eagerly because there were alot of stuffs in between them and they were well preserved.
Most of my family had back slided since after the death of my great grandma.
By the way, my family is made up of mostly of believers.
My great grandma was one of them.
She spends almost all her time in her later years with the Lord.
Read all her bible, praise the lord and enjoy life to the max every single day.
Anyway, she passed on to the next world peacefully when she was reading her bible many years before I was born.
It was this strong faith that kept my mum's family together.
Well, the rest is history.
Sometimes, I feel that choosing to follow Him is a task because of all the expectations.
Sometimes, I feel as if I like trying my best to be, but I cant.
I cant hear Him anymore.
I don't feel His presence when I worship or read the bible.
Sometimes, I find it quite tough to be born in a family with pre-believers and used to be believers.
Well..I know everything will be fine.
cos Lord has shown me that everything on earth will end one day.
Nothing last forever=)
i know that i have loved you ... at 12/01/2007 05:44:00 pm
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