if i never see your face again ...
then i will find you and love you once more
time after time

Friday, March 28, 2008

The last of Block Test and Santification week

YIPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEE!!!!

I had my last block test paper today =)
I thought that generally speaking, it was quite okay.

Running on less than 2 hours of sleep for each examination,
it's really a wonder that I did not fall asleep during my paper.
However, I nearly did today but I managed to endure it through =)

Well, I sound like some serious mugger losing sleep due to preparing for examinations.
I did not, just some side-effects from falling ill prior to my exams and having an irriating brother.

ARCADE and GAMES , HOW I MISS YOU!!!
hahax.. I miss playing drummania.
I wonder how did I survive without you =)




-Santification week-


It was fantastic!
I had a vision that He promised I will see His hand in.
He had further define the meaning of full healing.
I don't know if I am ready to walk back in and watch the whole thing unfold before my eyes,
but it beats better than speculating.
I need to take that step or I will never be free from the clasp of Fear.

Can't wait how things would develop =)

i know that i have loved you ... at 3/28/2008 12:06:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

Sunday, March 09, 2008

The last

I am not going to let it rob me of anything.
As much as it has formed the present me,
It's time I embrace the true meaning of rebirth.

The old self had died on the sunday after santification week.
No fears , no sense of pride , no sense of self consciousness will hold me from experiencing the fullness of the spirit.
I am going to take the journey to relearn everything I have learnt and I have started on it.

I learnt to trust more fully in the begining of the year.
It's time I learn to forgive, forget and rely.

Anyway,on last thursday, I had a kick-assed day.
I was tramatised by this lit piece.
When Ms Kwok read the piece, familiar thoughts and feelings started assaulting me.
The harsh change from innocence to .... was so vivid.
I remembered my own.
The very first.
My brain shut down immediately.
The playwright could put the feelings I could not explain into words.
It made me understand how I felt then.
The playwright help me untangle the mess of emotions that flooded me.
And now they don't seem so daunting.

I really thank Lord.
Because I have found my village.

i know that i have loved you ... at 3/09/2008 07:45:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 1 identities

Monday, March 03, 2008

Future

"You should have been proud not shameful."

With a sympathetic smile on her face, she looks at the battered, teary girl in front of her ,"
I have been through what you are going through now, I had lied and manipulated before I got on the journey of healing but I did."
She exhibit confidence, freedom and joy.

I learn about a lot of stuffs.
I felt gulity and upset.
As observant and smart I thought I was, I failed to notice her wrath.
It upsets me.
I would not have tried to show my concern for you if I knew you were angry.
I would have done something if I knew.
Thank you lord.
Letting me know of my mistakes and my follies.

i know that i have loved you ... at 3/03/2008 08:58:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities

` here.waiting ;

^reminds;me*of

  • November 2010
  • January 2010
  • November 2009
  • October 2009
  • August 2009
  • July 2009
  • June 2009
  • March 2009
  • February 2009
  • January 2009
  • December 2008
  • November 2008
  • October 2008
  • September 2008
  • August 2008
  • July 2008
  • June 2008
  • May 2008
  • April 2008
  • March 2008
  • February 2008
  • January 2008
  • December 2007
  • November 2007
  • October 2007
  • September 2007
  • August 2007
  • July 2007
  • June 2007
  • May 2007
  • April 2007
  • March 2007
  • February 2007
  • September 2006
  • August 2006
  • July 2006
  • June 2006
  • May 2006
  • April 2006
  • March 2006
  • February 2006
  • January 2006
  • December 2005
  • November 2005

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