Sunday, November 21, 2010
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/21/2010 04:52:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, November 07, 2010
I can't describe the feelings that washed through me when my gaze fell upon his balding head- the falling and thinning of hair.
It's like a classic image of someone who undergoing chemotherapy.
In my wilderness imagination did I ever imagine seeing my grandfather in such a state.
My strong, polite and blessed grandfather.
A tower on a unshaking rock.
He used to have a powerful grip and shaking hands with him would mean hours of massaging your dear hand after.
He's also my idea of an epitome of emotional strength.
With his vitality and strength, it had never crossed my mind that he might actually decline or that the strong waves of death would one day crashed the impregnable tower.
Or that there may not be a tomorrow.
I'm impressed.
I'm proud of my family who could go on with their lives with smiles plastered on faces.
I'm proud of the resilience that seemed to run in the blood.
Ties that bind- I guess this is what it means.
There is no avoiding of the issue right now.
Death will put the final full-stop to the story of our lives.
I feel the urgency of seeing him saved.
It's home that the Lord is taking him to.
It's like a classic image of someone who undergoing chemotherapy.
In my wilderness imagination did I ever imagine seeing my grandfather in such a state.
My strong, polite and blessed grandfather.
A tower on a unshaking rock.
He used to have a powerful grip and shaking hands with him would mean hours of massaging your dear hand after.
He's also my idea of an epitome of emotional strength.
With his vitality and strength, it had never crossed my mind that he might actually decline or that the strong waves of death would one day crashed the impregnable tower.
Or that there may not be a tomorrow.
I'm impressed.
I'm proud of my family who could go on with their lives with smiles plastered on faces.
I'm proud of the resilience that seemed to run in the blood.
Ties that bind- I guess this is what it means.
There is no avoiding of the issue right now.
Death will put the final full-stop to the story of our lives.
I feel the urgency of seeing him saved.
It's home that the Lord is taking him to.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/07/2010 10:15:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Thumbs-up
"Good,"said I, happily
flashing two thumbs-up in front of her.
Curling tiny fingers in earnest effort;
Brows drew into a line of concentrate,
at the enormous task.
Her eight stubborn fingers refused to budge,
insisting to stick out like sticks instead.
Refusing to give up, she persisted.
The battle etched lines of frustration on her face.
Finally, her fingers relented,
curling inwards;
forming two unmistakable thumbs-up.
A dazzling smile of delight appeared on her lips,
as she mirrored the thumbs-up I had given her.
I smiled.
"Good,"said I, happily
flashing two thumbs-up in front of her.
Curling tiny fingers in earnest effort;
Brows drew into a line of concentrate,
at the enormous task.
Her eight stubborn fingers refused to budge,
insisting to stick out like sticks instead.
Refusing to give up, she persisted.
The battle etched lines of frustration on her face.
Finally, her fingers relented,
curling inwards;
forming two unmistakable thumbs-up.
A dazzling smile of delight appeared on her lips,
as she mirrored the thumbs-up I had given her.
I smiled.
i know that i have loved you ... at 1/31/2010 03:24:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, November 27, 2009
up up and away! Time to let go!
I'm totally a sucker for such heart-warming animations.
Up deals with several issues close to heart and closes up on the hearts of the elderly.
Well, it begins with a quick journey of the protagonist and his wife, Emily 's relationship and we can see how in love the couple as they aged from the simple domestic scenes-building the dream home, bit by bit with all they had,a wife doing the tie of her husband daily, taking occasional walks to the hill near their small house. Naturally, as a couple, they had their ups and downs and we see compromise and effort made by either party to make it work and it did.
The producer used about twenty minutes to convene the deep love shared by the couple. Well, then Emily passes away before the couple could do some travelling together, something they always wanted as a kid and the old man was left with only regrets.
The first scene shown after the loss of his wife was symbolic, his old unchanged house stood awkwardly among constructions sites and the modern buildings, as if time stood still for him. The old man sticks with all his routines, a striking similarity to Great Expection's Satis House, though I must say his house is far cheery with its colours. It cast a foreboding feeling as if the old man has begin his transformation to decay inwardly.
Well, he becomes a grumpy old tired man. Anyway, he got into trouble when he desperately tried to protect all physical reminders of his beloved wife so he hatched this plan to achieved his wife's dream of living at the Paradise Falls.
It's incredibly comical to see the house floating because of the thousands of balloons he blew and tied overnight. Well, on the way he met a lot of difficulties that coerced him to break away from the past and start living in the now and he did.
There was another symbolic scene where he tossed everything that he once hold dear out of the house in his haste to honor a new promise.
In all, the animation concluded wonderfully-the old man learnt to let go of his past and live a fresh new life.
I must add that the animation's target audience aren't children but adults who can appreciate the imageries cleverly used and the theme.
It's really cool though, I love it. Hahah =)
Up deals with several issues close to heart and closes up on the hearts of the elderly.
Well, it begins with a quick journey of the protagonist and his wife, Emily 's relationship and we can see how in love the couple as they aged from the simple domestic scenes-building the dream home, bit by bit with all they had,a wife doing the tie of her husband daily, taking occasional walks to the hill near their small house. Naturally, as a couple, they had their ups and downs and we see compromise and effort made by either party to make it work and it did.
The producer used about twenty minutes to convene the deep love shared by the couple. Well, then Emily passes away before the couple could do some travelling together, something they always wanted as a kid and the old man was left with only regrets.
The first scene shown after the loss of his wife was symbolic, his old unchanged house stood awkwardly among constructions sites and the modern buildings, as if time stood still for him. The old man sticks with all his routines, a striking similarity to Great Expection's Satis House, though I must say his house is far cheery with its colours. It cast a foreboding feeling as if the old man has begin his transformation to decay inwardly.
Well, he becomes a grumpy old tired man. Anyway, he got into trouble when he desperately tried to protect all physical reminders of his beloved wife so he hatched this plan to achieved his wife's dream of living at the Paradise Falls.
It's incredibly comical to see the house floating because of the thousands of balloons he blew and tied overnight. Well, on the way he met a lot of difficulties that coerced him to break away from the past and start living in the now and he did.
There was another symbolic scene where he tossed everything that he once hold dear out of the house in his haste to honor a new promise.
In all, the animation concluded wonderfully-the old man learnt to let go of his past and live a fresh new life.
I must add that the animation's target audience aren't children but adults who can appreciate the imageries cleverly used and the theme.
It's really cool though, I love it. Hahah =)
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/27/2009 03:51:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Matthew 6:33 " But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well."
This verse has been constantly on my mind for the past week. To really understand the verse, you need to read the entire passage entitled "Do not worry"
Matthew 6:25-34
"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life , what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?
Look at the birds in the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin.
Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these.
If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith?
So do not worry, saying 'What will we eat?' or 'What will we drink?' or 'What will we wear?'
For the pagans run after all these things and your heavenly Father knows that you need them.
But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be given unto you as well.
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
The passage began to make more sense for me as I completed the book my friend had lent me a week ago. It was about a man who lived by faith and believed with all his soul that God would truly honour His promise. He hungered for God and God has never let him down. To illustrate, God told this man to leave his country- Sri Lanka and travel around the world. At that point of time, he was penniless, he had a family and he lived from day to day. Yet, he obeyed God and left for America. God never let him down. When he needed money, God would send someone to help him.
I think something stirred deep inside of me when I read about his journey of faith. It is as if God's constantly reminding me that we have to walk in His way and He will meet my needs. It's kinda befitting, thinking I'm worried about my direction in life and I'm struggling to make ends meet sometimes- I'm jobless and I'm living on my last salary. I truly believe it's a word for this season of my life and I'm going to spend my time seeking Him.
Yes and He has always honored His promises. When I took a leap of faith this year and went for the Shanghai trip during June, God blessed me with a job, with generous donors that I didn't need to ask a single cent from my parents. Moreover, I never had to worry for a job since God seemed to always provide me with one when I needed it. He's truly my provider.
I pray that one day, anyone reading this post would come to know about this God that I'm serving and truly experiencing the Joy and the Freedom that He gives.
Amen!
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/11/2009 01:09:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, October 31, 2009
I wonder if one could just stop caring for someone when one's job ends.
My answer is no.
I was excited and happy to see my ex student at the bus- stop today.
I remember every single student I taught for the past few months.
Their sillines and their cuteness.
After two weeks, I find myself missing them. I'm still checking with my friend how they're faring back at school.
Of course, there are things that I don't miss about them.
I'm sure I'll be skinless if I return during lunch time to see them.
Of course, I start to miss them again if I visit them.
It's so difficult to stop caring for a person when you start.
Not something I'm unfamiliar about, but it makes me wonder if all my teachers feel that way.
My answer is no.
I was excited and happy to see my ex student at the bus- stop today.
I remember every single student I taught for the past few months.
Their sillines and their cuteness.
After two weeks, I find myself missing them. I'm still checking with my friend how they're faring back at school.
Of course, there are things that I don't miss about them.
I'm sure I'll be skinless if I return during lunch time to see them.
Of course, I start to miss them again if I visit them.
It's so difficult to stop caring for a person when you start.
Not something I'm unfamiliar about, but it makes me wonder if all my teachers feel that way.
i know that i have loved you ... at 10/31/2009 02:00:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Thinking about my purpose
Day 3
"You, Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you." Isaiah 26:3
I'm not too sure what would people say if I ask them what is the driving force in my life. I've a feeling it might be guilt and fear. I think I always live a life propelled by these two and I know that I'm entrapped because of them. I want to live a life that is driven by the purpose God has created me for- to live a fulfilling and free life. I believe that God has a purpose for me and that He will reveal it in bits.
"You, Lord, give perfect peace to those who keep their purpose firm and put their trust in you." Isaiah 26:3
I'm not too sure what would people say if I ask them what is the driving force in my life. I've a feeling it might be guilt and fear. I think I always live a life propelled by these two and I know that I'm entrapped because of them. I want to live a life that is driven by the purpose God has created me for- to live a fulfilling and free life. I believe that God has a purpose for me and that He will reveal it in bits.
i know that i have loved you ... at 10/22/2009 11:14:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
You are not an Accident Day 2
"I am Your Creator. You were even in my care before you were born." Isaiah 44:2
You are who you are for a reason.
You are part of an intricate plan.
You are a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.
You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knitted you together within the womb,
You're JUST what he wanted to make.
The parents that you had are the ones He chose.
and no matter how you may feel,
they were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
and they bear the Master's seal.
No, that trauma you face was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
so that into his likeness you'd grow.
You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are,beloved,
Because there is a God!
You are who you are for a reason.
You are part of an intricate plan.
You are a precious and perfect unique design,
Called God's special woman or man.
You look like you look for a reason.
Our God made no mistake.
He knitted you together within the womb,
You're JUST what he wanted to make.
The parents that you had are the ones He chose.
and no matter how you may feel,
they were custom-designed with God's plan in mind,
and they bear the Master's seal.
No, that trauma you face was not easy.
And God wept that it hurt you so;
But it was allowed to shape your heart
so that into his likeness you'd grow.
You are who you are for a reason,
You've been formed by the Master's rod.
You are who you are,beloved,
Because there is a God!
Russell Kelfer "The Purpose Driven Life"
Knowing that God made no mistakes in creating me, it's comforting to know that there's a reason why I'd to go through certain experience- There is meaning in going through them. I think I'm still struggling in trying to accept some aspect of myself. I can't accept the fact that I'm always sick with something and that because of my sickness I missed the targets that I've set for myself.
That's my reflection for Day 2
i know that i have loved you ... at 10/22/2009 12:13:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
The purpose driven life Day 1
Day 1- Thinking about my purpose.
"Everything got started in Him and find its purposes in Him." Colossians 1:16b(Msg)
Well, I guess I know that it's just not about me. Yet there's really a subtle difference in knowing and truly believing that my life just isn't about me. I know that I'm clueless about the direction of my life. I used to believe that I gave my life a purpose- setting a goal that appeals to me and working hard towards it. God has set His eyes upon me before I was born and has plans to prosper me. So yes, life then isn't about me anymore-It's about God.
As for the question to remind myself that life is really about living for God, my answer would be to spend time with Him daily. I think by getting to know God better through dedicating time to him daily would help because I'll get to learn about the character and the promises of God. Everything will fall in place as God has promised.
Short short reflection.. but I'm done.
"Everything got started in Him and find its purposes in Him." Colossians 1:16b(Msg)
Well, I guess I know that it's just not about me. Yet there's really a subtle difference in knowing and truly believing that my life just isn't about me. I know that I'm clueless about the direction of my life. I used to believe that I gave my life a purpose- setting a goal that appeals to me and working hard towards it. God has set His eyes upon me before I was born and has plans to prosper me. So yes, life then isn't about me anymore-It's about God.
As for the question to remind myself that life is really about living for God, my answer would be to spend time with Him daily. I think by getting to know God better through dedicating time to him daily would help because I'll get to learn about the character and the promises of God. Everything will fall in place as God has promised.
Short short reflection.. but I'm done.
i know that i have loved you ... at 10/21/2009 01:37:00 am
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, October 18, 2009
Parting words of a Temp Teacher
Days rolled over to months and finally I found myself at the end of this particular chapter of my life.
It was just four months ago when I entered the familiar staff room for the first time. My student sat at the table, waiting anxiously for me to arrive. She was unusually quiet and I found it difficult to reach out to her. Quiet can no longer be used to describe her now. You can hear her from the other side of the centre, screaming in English at some classmates who dare to cross her.
I've come into the conclusion that I'll never be a teacher.
I think it takes a lot of effort to keep up with children- They have an amazing level of energy.
No doubt, it's a refreshing change to be facing kids.
There are times when you let your hair down and indulge in the inner child that you've always ignored.
Of course, you learn to be more conscious of the words you speak and the actions you do. I was constantly reminded of this whenever my student display this nasty habit they have learnt from me.I tend to threatened to poke them if they attempt to misbehave themselves.
You can imagine the shock on my face when I heard one of my students saying,
"If you take my pencil again, I'll poke you!"
It's a nice change from "I'll hit you!" but it emphasised the fact that children pick up actions and words from adults fast.
Nevertheless, I continued to threatened them in those moments when I'm exasperated with them.
One thing for sure, I'm sure I will miss their child-like candor- they never fail to speak up what they truly feel. I regretted telling my student that I was happily unattached because they were anxious about offering me tips to find my second half.
"Teacher, you must lose weight so that you're look nice!"
"Teacher, you must go shopping. I can tell the days of the week from the clothes you wear."
"Teacher, you must go out often. Don't go straight home after work."
"Teacher, you're getting older-you've a lot of white hair."
I'll usually retorted by asking them to do their work or by changing the subject.
Each day always bring a fresh set of challenge because kids are very temperamental- No one day at school is the same. It's something that I've grown to enjoy.
Of course, I'll miss the amazing staff.
I'll miss their weird expressions of the students.
"I turn my head 90 degrees to the right.... " ( My comment : You must be great at Maths!)
"The constables waited for the robber to do something wrong before interrogating him"( My comment: We don't live in the 40s, we call them Police nowadays. Besides, the Police interrogates if they find you suspicious.)
We spend countless hour laughing until we teared because of the lack of logic or the strange expressions that they have used.
In all, it has been a wonderful experience for me.
It was just four months ago when I entered the familiar staff room for the first time. My student sat at the table, waiting anxiously for me to arrive. She was unusually quiet and I found it difficult to reach out to her. Quiet can no longer be used to describe her now. You can hear her from the other side of the centre, screaming in English at some classmates who dare to cross her.
I've come into the conclusion that I'll never be a teacher.
I think it takes a lot of effort to keep up with children- They have an amazing level of energy.
No doubt, it's a refreshing change to be facing kids.
There are times when you let your hair down and indulge in the inner child that you've always ignored.
Of course, you learn to be more conscious of the words you speak and the actions you do. I was constantly reminded of this whenever my student display this nasty habit they have learnt from me.I tend to threatened to poke them if they attempt to misbehave themselves.
You can imagine the shock on my face when I heard one of my students saying,
"If you take my pencil again, I'll poke you!"
It's a nice change from "I'll hit you!" but it emphasised the fact that children pick up actions and words from adults fast.
Nevertheless, I continued to threatened them in those moments when I'm exasperated with them.
One thing for sure, I'm sure I will miss their child-like candor- they never fail to speak up what they truly feel. I regretted telling my student that I was happily unattached because they were anxious about offering me tips to find my second half.
"Teacher, you must lose weight so that you're look nice!"
"Teacher, you must go shopping. I can tell the days of the week from the clothes you wear."
"Teacher, you must go out often. Don't go straight home after work."
"Teacher, you're getting older-you've a lot of white hair."
I'll usually retorted by asking them to do their work or by changing the subject.
Each day always bring a fresh set of challenge because kids are very temperamental- No one day at school is the same. It's something that I've grown to enjoy.
Of course, I'll miss the amazing staff.
I'll miss their weird expressions of the students.
"I turn my head 90 degrees to the right.... " ( My comment : You must be great at Maths!)
"The constables waited for the robber to do something wrong before interrogating him"( My comment: We don't live in the 40s, we call them Police nowadays. Besides, the Police interrogates if they find you suspicious.)
We spend countless hour laughing until we teared because of the lack of logic or the strange expressions that they have used.
In all, it has been a wonderful experience for me.
i know that i have loved you ... at 10/18/2009 11:15:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, August 24, 2009
I've just got the feeling that I'm going to be out of job soon.
Really really soon.
Not that I harbour hope in staying in it permanently.
Then again,
I don't like the feeling of being so disposable.
Neither do I like the feeling as if I'm not contributing.
Saw an ex-schoolmate today on the train.
She was reading powerpoint slides on indifference curve.
Her brows were knitted in concentration as she seek to understand.
Can't imgaine why the scene was etched so deeply into my mind.
Maybe it's because two years ago, I sat in the library, excitedly pouring through the thick books available on the shelf about it.
Or maybe, it was because the same two years ago, I was excitedly discussing the points with my brother at home.
I need an output.
I need to start serving others.
Really really soon.
Not that I harbour hope in staying in it permanently.
Then again,
I don't like the feeling of being so disposable.
Neither do I like the feeling as if I'm not contributing.
Saw an ex-schoolmate today on the train.
She was reading powerpoint slides on indifference curve.
Her brows were knitted in concentration as she seek to understand.
Can't imgaine why the scene was etched so deeply into my mind.
Maybe it's because two years ago, I sat in the library, excitedly pouring through the thick books available on the shelf about it.
Or maybe, it was because the same two years ago, I was excitedly discussing the points with my brother at home.
I need an output.
I need to start serving others.
i know that i have loved you ... at 8/24/2009 10:00:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Speaking to friends these days gives me a sense of alienation for some odd reasons.
Maybe it's because we're in different seasons, the fact that we no longer speak the same wavelength or share the different opinions of a common experience which birthed such emotions.
It feels as if others have moved steadily along towards their goals, experiencing fresh things and growing as they explore.
I'm glad and happy they've moved on.
It doesn't soften the blow that I'm stuck in between, waiting for the next opportunity as I crossed the days of my calendar.
Coupled with sentimentality, it made everything worse.
Speaking to people don't help.
Like, I'm not being bei guan okay!
I dont need to be optimistic.
Maybe it's because we're in different seasons, the fact that we no longer speak the same wavelength or share the different opinions of a common experience which birthed such emotions.
It feels as if others have moved steadily along towards their goals, experiencing fresh things and growing as they explore.
I'm glad and happy they've moved on.
It doesn't soften the blow that I'm stuck in between, waiting for the next opportunity as I crossed the days of my calendar.
Coupled with sentimentality, it made everything worse.
Speaking to people don't help.
Like, I'm not being bei guan okay!
I dont need to be optimistic.
i know that i have loved you ... at 8/15/2009 10:30:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, July 31, 2009
It's been a rather weird week and I thank god that it's over.
It's time for some rest!
Yes, I'm really tired.
Think I'm catching a flu bug either my class or the students from the summer school.
I'll get breathless when I try to raise my voice to teach.
Moroever, the anti allergy medicine is really drowsy.
I'm very glad to hear that my friends are getting somewhere.
Not going to doubt if this is the place where god wants me to be now at this point of time honestly.
I like the way things are right now.
It's just certain decisions concerning my health that I'm indecisvie about.
Seriously, I'm just like so irritated with the whole hospital thing.
By the way, I'm feeling better.
Probably because I'm too worn out to feel anything.
Good night.
It's time for some rest!
Yes, I'm really tired.
Think I'm catching a flu bug either my class or the students from the summer school.
I'll get breathless when I try to raise my voice to teach.
Moroever, the anti allergy medicine is really drowsy.
I'm very glad to hear that my friends are getting somewhere.
Not going to doubt if this is the place where god wants me to be now at this point of time honestly.
I like the way things are right now.
It's just certain decisions concerning my health that I'm indecisvie about.
Seriously, I'm just like so irritated with the whole hospital thing.
By the way, I'm feeling better.
Probably because I'm too worn out to feel anything.
Good night.
i know that i have loved you ... at 7/31/2009 11:32:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, July 27, 2009
I'm feeling a bit down since yesterday and the mood don't seem to be fading away. It's not as if there is something wrong, everything is working out fine. I do know the reason for this bout of unhappiness, but I find it too stupid for me to be honest with myself.
I can't decide which is more foolish- admitting the reason or continuing to deceive myself.
Moving on,
a few years have past as I reflect, I can't help but fall on my knees and thank God for being so merciful to me.So much have changed for the better since, I thank the Lord for this miracle in my family's lives.
There are still cracks but I truly believe that all these will be healed , by the grace of God.
I know I'm getting there somehow. Haha.
It's during this time of the year when I start to remember one particular friend.
Not out of a guilty heart but of a grateful one when I think of this person.
Sheehs, I hate being sentimental.
It's a week since QQS has past
I'll get over it next week.
I can't decide which is more foolish- admitting the reason or continuing to deceive myself.
Moving on,
a few years have past as I reflect, I can't help but fall on my knees and thank God for being so merciful to me.So much have changed for the better since, I thank the Lord for this miracle in my family's lives.
There are still cracks but I truly believe that all these will be healed , by the grace of God.
I know I'm getting there somehow. Haha.
It's during this time of the year when I start to remember one particular friend.
Not out of a guilty heart but of a grateful one when I think of this person.
Sheehs, I hate being sentimental.
It's a week since QQS has past
I'll get over it next week.
i know that i have loved you ... at 7/27/2009 11:15:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, July 26, 2009
Where have my past few months gone?
Recently, I've been primarily busy with the community service project, Qian Qian Shou and work. Well, I'm going to do a brief update.
For anyone who is interested in which University would I be entering this year, the answer is that I wouldn't be studying. In fact, I'm going to take a gap year and spend my time gaining working experiences. I'm pretty much looking forward to gain more exposure.
Currently, I'm working as a teacher. I have 7 adorable kids and they are between the ages of 6-9. Well, they are foreign children trying to assimilate into the Singapore schools. I teach them English and Mathematics. Their main problem is English but they constantly fascinates me with the number of languages they are learning. To illustrate, the youngest boy in my class, he learns 4 languages- English ( He is very good at it), Laos, Thai, Chinese. Amazing isn't he? By the way he is the cutest one in the picture. HAHA! Most of the time I have to teach the class in two languages, Chinese and English, since most don't really understand English that well. It's a very interesting experience.
By the way, I don't have any physical pain for the past 7 weeks! By faith, I am healed! Praise God! Yes, I 'm still really happy about it. Can you imagine how many years did I spend contenting with pain?It was so long till I forgot how it feels without it!
Another event I want to highlight is Qian Qian Shou. It is the name of the community service trip I made to Shanghai. I learnt a plenty there and I made really good friends. I felt very blessed to have the opportunity to help others and to gain exposure.
Well, that's all.
I'm off to do my work.
i know that i have loved you ... at 7/26/2009 09:13:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
If you are wondering what I am doing recently,I'm now a temporary English and Mathematics teacher for pre primary school students.
My students are young and few but they can really be handful at times, makes me wonder sometimes how some are able to teach a class of thirty students.
They do make my day sometimes with their adorable antics, after you get used to the way they speak and walk , in our language, shout and run.
It's only three days on the job and I am racking my brains for ways to keep their attention and to encourage learning.
So far, I've tried hang-man and finding hidden objects in pictures after they completed their exercises.
I used that to teach them pronunciation and spelling.
I was considering charades but I'm not too sure what kind of topics should I give.
There is also the issue on discipline.
Oh well.
I guess I just have to figure it out.
My students are young and few but they can really be handful at times, makes me wonder sometimes how some are able to teach a class of thirty students.
They do make my day sometimes with their adorable antics, after you get used to the way they speak and walk , in our language, shout and run.
It's only three days on the job and I am racking my brains for ways to keep their attention and to encourage learning.
So far, I've tried hang-man and finding hidden objects in pictures after they completed their exercises.
I used that to teach them pronunciation and spelling.
I was considering charades but I'm not too sure what kind of topics should I give.
There is also the issue on discipline.
Oh well.
I guess I just have to figure it out.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/17/2009 05:10:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, June 05, 2009
Well, I'm really enjoying my break nowadays, the entertaining late night chats, the interesting and fun filled outings, the books. I always wondered what can you do when you don't work or study and I guess I got my answer.
I love those outings with the people that I haven't contacted for ages. It's just real amazing that when we begin talking again, all those years just disappeared and we are back to the times when we're very close.
It just lightens my heart to know that things don't change =)
Then there are the strengthening of new relationships.
It's just awesome.
Well, I also have more time to explore my interests fully.
I love the freedom to spend all my time in reading.
Well, that's all.
I've done my best and I have no regrets.
I love those outings with the people that I haven't contacted for ages. It's just real amazing that when we begin talking again, all those years just disappeared and we are back to the times when we're very close.
It just lightens my heart to know that things don't change =)
Then there are the strengthening of new relationships.
It's just awesome.
Well, I also have more time to explore my interests fully.
I love the freedom to spend all my time in reading.
Well, that's all.
I've done my best and I have no regrets.
i know that i have loved you ... at 6/05/2009 12:20:00 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, March 27, 2009
Life don't get any better than this.
With each new day, I coerced to decide between a path that is rocky and full of uncertainty or a path of defeat, living with gulit for being so irresponsible.
Sheesh, I just hate the way I live now.
Bowing down to my illness and accepting the consquences of surrendering.
Yet, I'm left with very little choice.
Ironically, the illness I'm talking about isn't something life threatening or big that people can understand. It's just a irritating illness that's been testing my will for close to a year.
Pain and more pain.
Sometimes, I can't comprehend why I should choose to fight so hard.
I can't help wondering about another choice.
One I should not think about it at all yet I don't think I have the energy to struggle in a meaningless battle.
Why is the choice to live such a difficult one to stick?
Stripped off the fascade of excitement and joy, I'm nothing.
Just another trying so hard to make each day work.
Just another trying to live.
I can't find it within me to spur myself not to give up.
Maybe it's time to let go.
With each new day, I coerced to decide between a path that is rocky and full of uncertainty or a path of defeat, living with gulit for being so irresponsible.
Sheesh, I just hate the way I live now.
Bowing down to my illness and accepting the consquences of surrendering.
Yet, I'm left with very little choice.
Ironically, the illness I'm talking about isn't something life threatening or big that people can understand. It's just a irritating illness that's been testing my will for close to a year.
Pain and more pain.
Sometimes, I can't comprehend why I should choose to fight so hard.
I can't help wondering about another choice.
One I should not think about it at all yet I don't think I have the energy to struggle in a meaningless battle.
Why is the choice to live such a difficult one to stick?
Stripped off the fascade of excitement and joy, I'm nothing.
Just another trying so hard to make each day work.
Just another trying to live.
I can't find it within me to spur myself not to give up.
Maybe it's time to let go.
i know that i have loved you ... at 3/27/2009 11:42:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, February 27, 2009
It's amusing.
I seem to always bring out the parenting instincts out of everyone.
For some odd reasons.
Everyone like mothering me in office.
My mentor and my SIO in the team I was first trained in were seriously very protective of me.
Always there to grab my phone when I have a difficulty maintaining a calm and amiable conversation with the other party.
Or simply just always there to lend me assistance and patiently answering my never ending questions.
Even when I was helping out with another team,
the other IO I was working with was also very protective of me.
I thought all the mothering would end when I was removed from team I grew very accustomed with to another right at the end of the office.
There was a serious lack of manpower in that area,
so I had to be shifted over to help them out.
Well, I thought that would be the end of my mothering days since they would not have the time to care about their temp assistants right?
Guess what?
I was wrong.
I am now being mothered by another staff like me.
It's just kinda amusing.
I really thank god for the brilliant people he has placed me to be with.
They are really very nice people and I learn plenty from them.
I seem to always bring out the parenting instincts out of everyone.
For some odd reasons.
Everyone like mothering me in office.
My mentor and my SIO in the team I was first trained in were seriously very protective of me.
Always there to grab my phone when I have a difficulty maintaining a calm and amiable conversation with the other party.
Or simply just always there to lend me assistance and patiently answering my never ending questions.
Even when I was helping out with another team,
the other IO I was working with was also very protective of me.
I thought all the mothering would end when I was removed from team I grew very accustomed with to another right at the end of the office.
There was a serious lack of manpower in that area,
so I had to be shifted over to help them out.
Well, I thought that would be the end of my mothering days since they would not have the time to care about their temp assistants right?
Guess what?
I was wrong.
I am now being mothered by another staff like me.
It's just kinda amusing.
I really thank god for the brilliant people he has placed me to be with.
They are really very nice people and I learn plenty from them.
i know that i have loved you ... at 2/27/2009 11:02:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
I know exactly what is the condition of my heart.
Increasingly frequent bouts of irrational anger, increasingly more sleeping time and increasingly deficit of energy are great indication of it.
I'm just so sick of living sometimes
but life has to go on...
Increasingly frequent bouts of irrational anger, increasingly more sleeping time and increasingly deficit of energy are great indication of it.
I'm just so sick of living sometimes
but life has to go on...
i know that i have loved you ... at 2/10/2009 11:05:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, January 01, 2009
Reflection on year 2008!
Thank god for my fabulous year!
I guess my year could be spilt into two seasons.
The first being the season to heal from my nightmares and the second my health.
It has been an amazing year.
God used the people around me to begin my healing process.
It was tough at first but God pull me through.
The second season was mainly about my health.
There were many times when I lost faith but God pulled me through it.
He saw me through it and carried me through it.
After reflecting about my 2008, I saw His hand in every aspect of my life and well,
I'm just so thankful that I have an amazing god!
A god that did not forsake me.
Truly, He is my best assistant =)
Praise god to the highest!
I guess my year could be spilt into two seasons.
The first being the season to heal from my nightmares and the second my health.
It has been an amazing year.
God used the people around me to begin my healing process.
It was tough at first but God pull me through.
The second season was mainly about my health.
There were many times when I lost faith but God pulled me through it.
He saw me through it and carried me through it.
After reflecting about my 2008, I saw His hand in every aspect of my life and well,
I'm just so thankful that I have an amazing god!
A god that did not forsake me.
Truly, He is my best assistant =)
Praise god to the highest!
i know that i have loved you ... at 1/01/2009 02:16:00 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, December 29, 2008
I realised that I need to have a lot more output.
I'm getting lazy from the lack of activity. Hahax.. oh well.
I'm getting lazy from the lack of activity. Hahax.. oh well.
i know that i have loved you ... at 12/29/2008 10:52:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
I'm back from a sudden and quick trip to Malaysia and my secondary 4 class chalet.
I'll start with the bizarre trip to Malaysia.
It was more hurried than usual because we haven't really decided to go even up to the hour before we left for Malaysia.
Amazing right?
We packed everything we need for a three to five day journey in about an hour.
I really can't believe the stuffs I have to carry just because I'm still sick.
Anyway, I think in all the trip was a really blessed and meaningful trip for my family.
We saw the hand of God in the many things we did and it just reaffirms my faith.
Sometimes, I can't help doubting and thinking but God never lets me go.
He just reminds me that he is real in my life by blessing my family and I enormously.
Well, the next thing is my secondary four class chalet.
I didn't realise how much I had missed them till I saw most of them socialising under one same roof.
The feeling is just so good to see everyone chatting and joking with each other (in fluent mandarin of course) just like how we did in the past.
I'm surprised that I could still speak to them.
I never had so much fun watching others catching toys.
Anyway, the chalet ended for me in a rather meaningful way.
I met my Chinese sec 4 teacher, Miss Sun on the bus as I was travelling back home.
We began chatting about the teachers and about my classmates and she was delighted to know that my class even had a successful chalet together.
I realised that most of the teachers that I'm rather familiar with have left Xinmin.
Some have promoted, some have quited, some have transferred.
But I guess some things just never change,
like how the sec 2 students will be promoted to performing group
and how the performing group would be preparing for SYF and orientation.
The cycle of secondary life, I would say.
Anyway,
Yi lin made me relaised that I'm still very insensitive and ignorant.
Deep in my heart, I really wish to mend that broken relationship but I don't have the ability or the intelligence to.
Yes, I haven't forgotten about you.
To be honest, I don't even know what had happened between the both of us.
And I guess I'll never know if you choose to tell everyone but me.
Maybe I should be contented with it and let time wash away all the memories I once shared with you.
Lest I start harassing you and cause you even more grievance.
I remembered that you were once my best friend when I was secondary 1 and 2 and that we mysteriously stopped talking when I was in my third year.
We were classmates for two years and we used to spend a lot of time together then.
I wish that we could just talk.
I want to know why did you walk out on me at the time I most needed help.
Did you not want my companionship because I was no longer fun to be with?
Or did something just happened?
Yi lin was right.
For such a long time, I've been bitter about it and I had blamed you unjustifiably for it.
Because in my eyes then, you walked out on me when my world turned upside down and I had lost faith and confidence in everything.
I was blinded for a long long time and had refused to acknowledge that you weren't such a person.
I'm really sorry.
I pray that one day we can really resolve everything between us.
And keep on hoping that one day we can find it in our hearts to do so.
I'll start with the bizarre trip to Malaysia.
It was more hurried than usual because we haven't really decided to go even up to the hour before we left for Malaysia.
Amazing right?
We packed everything we need for a three to five day journey in about an hour.
I really can't believe the stuffs I have to carry just because I'm still sick.
Anyway, I think in all the trip was a really blessed and meaningful trip for my family.
We saw the hand of God in the many things we did and it just reaffirms my faith.
Sometimes, I can't help doubting and thinking but God never lets me go.
He just reminds me that he is real in my life by blessing my family and I enormously.
Well, the next thing is my secondary four class chalet.
I didn't realise how much I had missed them till I saw most of them socialising under one same roof.
The feeling is just so good to see everyone chatting and joking with each other (in fluent mandarin of course) just like how we did in the past.
I'm surprised that I could still speak to them.
I never had so much fun watching others catching toys.
Anyway, the chalet ended for me in a rather meaningful way.
I met my Chinese sec 4 teacher, Miss Sun on the bus as I was travelling back home.
We began chatting about the teachers and about my classmates and she was delighted to know that my class even had a successful chalet together.
I realised that most of the teachers that I'm rather familiar with have left Xinmin.
Some have promoted, some have quited, some have transferred.
But I guess some things just never change,
like how the sec 2 students will be promoted to performing group
and how the performing group would be preparing for SYF and orientation.
The cycle of secondary life, I would say.
Anyway,
Yi lin made me relaised that I'm still very insensitive and ignorant.
Deep in my heart, I really wish to mend that broken relationship but I don't have the ability or the intelligence to.
Yes, I haven't forgotten about you.
To be honest, I don't even know what had happened between the both of us.
And I guess I'll never know if you choose to tell everyone but me.
Maybe I should be contented with it and let time wash away all the memories I once shared with you.
Lest I start harassing you and cause you even more grievance.
I remembered that you were once my best friend when I was secondary 1 and 2 and that we mysteriously stopped talking when I was in my third year.
We were classmates for two years and we used to spend a lot of time together then.
I wish that we could just talk.
I want to know why did you walk out on me at the time I most needed help.
Did you not want my companionship because I was no longer fun to be with?
Or did something just happened?
Yi lin was right.
For such a long time, I've been bitter about it and I had blamed you unjustifiably for it.
Because in my eyes then, you walked out on me when my world turned upside down and I had lost faith and confidence in everything.
I was blinded for a long long time and had refused to acknowledge that you weren't such a person.
I'm really sorry.
I pray that one day we can really resolve everything between us.
And keep on hoping that one day we can find it in our hearts to do so.
i know that i have loved you ... at 12/17/2008 03:23:00 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Thursday, November 27, 2008
An impostor on facebook
Look at familiar name, I excitedly clicked on your profile.
The picture revealed a person that I have never known.
It's just another person with the same name who shares the same social circle and belongs to the same school.
A stoid and lifeless fraternal identical twin who shares all your memories
It makes me doubt my eyes.
I took out a photograph of you in the past and compare with this stranger.
The impostor appears to share similar physical features with you.
I persist in not acknowledging this stranger.
But I saw a shadow on the stranger's dead lips that proved the existence of your trademark carefree smile.
I noticed the faint tinge of your healthy color on the imposter's cheeks.
I begin to doubt.
Maybe that person was really you.
My memory needs time to synchronise with reality.
Meanwhile, I shall persist in rejecting this clever impostor.
The picture revealed a person that I have never known.
It's just another person with the same name who shares the same social circle and belongs to the same school.
A stoid and lifeless fraternal identical twin who shares all your memories
It makes me doubt my eyes.
I took out a photograph of you in the past and compare with this stranger.
The impostor appears to share similar physical features with you.
I persist in not acknowledging this stranger.
But I saw a shadow on the stranger's dead lips that proved the existence of your trademark carefree smile.
I noticed the faint tinge of your healthy color on the imposter's cheeks.
I begin to doubt.
Maybe that person was really you.
My memory needs time to synchronise with reality.
Meanwhile, I shall persist in rejecting this clever impostor.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/27/2008 10:09:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
The most exciting things that are happening now in my life either take place in books or in the arcade.
Recently, I have been trying different type of games.
I kind of like the dragon punch machine.
Well, if you don't know what it looks like, it's simply a punching machine.
It's quite comical to watch the males gaping at you as if you're really from Venus.
Before I had my first attempt in the game, I was watching this peacock lowering the punch bag with a overconfident smirk.
It had grabbed my attention immediately because I really wanted to see how he fared.
He had laughed at my brother's first attempt at punching because he could not get it right.
So with great anticipation, I watched on.
He made a running punch and he hit the bag wrongly thus the score was not registered (happens to everyone if you are not sure where to punch)
My brother politely directed him to the point the bag had to make a contact to register the score because he was aching to play.
Then he tried again and the score registered. It was only about a thousand higher than my brother's first attempt.
So that was about 6000?
The second hit was no better.
It was about that range but the guy was very satisfied with his results and started to boast about it.
He even flashed an overconfident smirk to our direction as if challeging us.
I was unsure at how to hit the punching bag too but my brother told me what he told the guy.
So to test it out, I gave a short jab or i didn't even extend my arm it was just a thrust from my shoulder.
The score was around his range.
When i finally got it, I did a follow through, and my score exceeded his by 2000, it was about 8600 (High score:9400)
When God sneezes, your pride get deflated.
His overly huge head deflated immediately while the others gaped.
It was really a comical sight.
To make his overly large pride shrink further, the guy he had laughed at, which is my brother hit a score of about 9200 for both times, far exceeding his greatest attempt.
And guess what?
We didn't even run.
We just did a basic straight punch (no way you could do a hook)
I guess I am just really sadist or something but he really brightened up my dull day.
I am now reading about economism and Islamic finance system.
I really think that we should operate by the Islamic finance system then we won't run the risk of having a credit crunch.
The books are quite interesting actually.
Recently, I have been trying different type of games.
I kind of like the dragon punch machine.
Well, if you don't know what it looks like, it's simply a punching machine.
It's quite comical to watch the males gaping at you as if you're really from Venus.
Before I had my first attempt in the game, I was watching this peacock lowering the punch bag with a overconfident smirk.
It had grabbed my attention immediately because I really wanted to see how he fared.
He had laughed at my brother's first attempt at punching because he could not get it right.
So with great anticipation, I watched on.
He made a running punch and he hit the bag wrongly thus the score was not registered (happens to everyone if you are not sure where to punch)
My brother politely directed him to the point the bag had to make a contact to register the score because he was aching to play.
Then he tried again and the score registered. It was only about a thousand higher than my brother's first attempt.
So that was about 6000?
The second hit was no better.
It was about that range but the guy was very satisfied with his results and started to boast about it.
He even flashed an overconfident smirk to our direction as if challeging us.
I was unsure at how to hit the punching bag too but my brother told me what he told the guy.
So to test it out, I gave a short jab or i didn't even extend my arm it was just a thrust from my shoulder.
The score was around his range.
When i finally got it, I did a follow through, and my score exceeded his by 2000, it was about 8600 (High score:9400)
When God sneezes, your pride get deflated.
His overly huge head deflated immediately while the others gaped.
It was really a comical sight.
To make his overly large pride shrink further, the guy he had laughed at, which is my brother hit a score of about 9200 for both times, far exceeding his greatest attempt.
And guess what?
We didn't even run.
We just did a basic straight punch (no way you could do a hook)
I guess I am just really sadist or something but he really brightened up my dull day.
I am now reading about economism and Islamic finance system.
I really think that we should operate by the Islamic finance system then we won't run the risk of having a credit crunch.
The books are quite interesting actually.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/25/2008 01:28:00 am
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, November 21, 2008
My A levels are over.
I don't feel somewhat overjoy or relieved.
The knowledge of myself not responding at full capacity burdens my heart.
I wouldn't have regrets if I had done my best.
I know I'll be fine tomorrow =)
Lord, if You don't change my circumstances, teach me to change my attitude. I know You hold my future.
I don't feel somewhat overjoy or relieved.
The knowledge of myself not responding at full capacity burdens my heart.
I wouldn't have regrets if I had done my best.
I know I'll be fine tomorrow =)
Lord, if You don't change my circumstances, teach me to change my attitude. I know You hold my future.
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/21/2008 07:53:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Monday, November 03, 2008
It has been an interesting week for me.
I gathered a lot of insights by talking to some people whom I haven't speak to for ages.
I realised that most people seem to associate the idea of being bitter and pessimism with emotional maturity, affirming the fact that it seem to be the in-thing to live a life that is filled with misery.
I guess this realisation struck a chord deep within me.
I was just like these hallowed shells, wrecking up other's happiness simply because I was jealous and bitter about what they have instead of being grateful about what I have.
At least I'm proud to say that I can now check such destructive feelings.
Pondering over what my friend had told me made me realised that true emotional maturity is that one can still choose to hope despite all odds.
It seem very paradoxical that one of the most difficult things to do in this world are simple words
like love, hope and faith.
Oh well.
I'm going back to my studies..
I gathered a lot of insights by talking to some people whom I haven't speak to for ages.
I realised that most people seem to associate the idea of being bitter and pessimism with emotional maturity, affirming the fact that it seem to be the in-thing to live a life that is filled with misery.
I guess this realisation struck a chord deep within me.
I was just like these hallowed shells, wrecking up other's happiness simply because I was jealous and bitter about what they have instead of being grateful about what I have.
At least I'm proud to say that I can now check such destructive feelings.
Pondering over what my friend had told me made me realised that true emotional maturity is that one can still choose to hope despite all odds.
It seem very paradoxical that one of the most difficult things to do in this world are simple words
like love, hope and faith.
Oh well.
I'm going back to my studies..
i know that i have loved you ... at 11/03/2008 11:07:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Friday, October 24, 2008
I miss Zhengong all of a sudden..
I guess even though I have friends, my spiritual family and god with me,
when things go wrong, I just want to talk to her...
It's an unhealthy over-reliance on her but I' m just so used to it.
When I have major problems, I'll talk to her not about it but...
Hmm...
I can't find my solution but I'm not going to ponder over it.
Because no matter how hard I try to figure things out, I won't get an answer to it by myself.
All I have to do is wait and see.
Yeah, be more patient with myself and see...
I guess even though I have friends, my spiritual family and god with me,
when things go wrong, I just want to talk to her...
It's an unhealthy over-reliance on her but I' m just so used to it.
When I have major problems, I'll talk to her not about it but...
Hmm...
I can't find my solution but I'm not going to ponder over it.
Because no matter how hard I try to figure things out, I won't get an answer to it by myself.
All I have to do is wait and see.
Yeah, be more patient with myself and see...
i know that i have loved you ... at 10/24/2008 11:26:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
I find it so hard.
So hard, Lord.
But my hope is in You.
I know it's training.
I will not give up.
I will not bow down to it.
So hard, Lord.
But my hope is in You.
I know it's training.
I will not give up.
I will not bow down to it.
i know that i have loved you ... at 10/14/2008 09:54:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Sunday, October 12, 2008
If it's a fight you want.
It's a fight I will give.
I have come to this point and I will not bow down to my illness.
Not because I trust myself to be able to carry myself through this.
But because I believe that God is at the end of it , catching me.
Just like how He has caught me when I stayed in the hospital.
He knew my fears and my iniquities and he carried me through every single one of it.
Thank you god for putting this fire in me.
I will put in my all in You.
Should I fail, I know you will paved the way out for me because you know my dreams and my aspirations.
Lord, I know you hold my future safely in your hands.
It's a fight I will give.
I have come to this point and I will not bow down to my illness.
Not because I trust myself to be able to carry myself through this.
But because I believe that God is at the end of it , catching me.
Just like how He has caught me when I stayed in the hospital.
He knew my fears and my iniquities and he carried me through every single one of it.
Thank you god for putting this fire in me.
I will put in my all in You.
Should I fail, I know you will paved the way out for me because you know my dreams and my aspirations.
Lord, I know you hold my future safely in your hands.
i know that i have loved you ... at 10/12/2008 10:16:00 pm
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fate crumbled all around 0 identities
Saturday, October 11, 2008
I'm back from hospital!
Well,I like to think I'm fine.
The diagnosis is inconclusive and I've got lots of painkillers to eat.
It amazes me that my medication, I mean only one medication cost more than my weekly allowance.
By the way, I get about $50 per week, my one painkiller cost $69.90.
Well, I havent include my other painkiller, constipation medication ,gastric medication and cream.
Hohoho.. darn expensive to be sick sia.
have to do follow up on pain management.
Looking on the bright side, at least they are teaching me to manage the pain =)
Well,I like to think I'm fine.
The diagnosis is inconclusive and I've got lots of painkillers to eat.
It amazes me that my medication, I mean only one medication cost more than my weekly allowance.
By the way, I get about $50 per week, my one painkiller cost $69.90.
Well, I havent include my other painkiller, constipation medication ,gastric medication and cream.
Hohoho.. darn expensive to be sick sia.
have to do follow up on pain management.
Looking on the bright side, at least they are teaching me to manage the pain =)
i know that i have loved you ... at 10/11/2008 01:12:00 pm
fate crumbled all around 0 identities
fate crumbled all around 0 identities